W.T.G - Guardian angels Lyrics

Back in summer '22
When I didn't have too much to prove
Moved out mama house from a feud
The pain I would ensue Right after misdirected my views
Everyone thinks they're bulletproof 'till life come shoots at you
But in the form of a bullet, I saw the angel of death
As he walks towards me, I can feel the anguish in every step
As He reached out to me I felt a part of my soul had left
Through every scar of flame occurred, and that always crept
Throughout my days and night terrors
And that day replays, and I share it
I'm glad that's not the day that I perished
The nightmares didn't help
Every night I dwelled in the pain that I carried
Was I meant to still be here
Or is it a punishment for the way I live my life?
That truth varied
Or did I ignore it because the truth was too scary?
I didn't want to be subjected to the fact I need repairing
But my flaws are too apparent
So I guess that it's imperative
Watch out for my guardian angels
Imma be this way until I catch a halo
Watch out for my guardian angels
Imma be this way until I catch a halo
Watch out for my guardian angels
From a product of malice my morality faded
If I could, I would take it and place where I wouldn't be naked
To the destruction I created between hatred and patience
I would take it back if I could, but I'm way too complacent
I'm way too angry
I realized that it was time for relenting
But I spent way too much time focused on what I could've been
The path I treaded is dark and grim
My mistakes coming full circle now it's too late to repent
Let me tell you 'bout when I lost my faith
Along the way A scene unfolds that I cannot escape
I would always choose the selfish route as a vessel of fate
Not fate, but rather a vessel of some inspiration
As of lately what surrounded me was some different eyes
I can never stand around and witness as somebody dies
It took me back to when I was nine
I thought I erased that from my mind
But the air still smelt the same nothing could save me from those odds
I was driving with Malakai when I saw a man in his car
All I saw was people recording I couldn't tell from afar
As I get closer to the scene, he's overdosing
The women there didn't Do nothing but watch
She had a baby on her arm
I render aid with CPR they didn't even call the law's
So now I'm pissed I take my fist one hand over the other
Now I'm pumping into his chest then I look back at my brother
It was cardiac arrest
We found out from his mother
That my bro called using Siri from his phone
He had drank and pills in his system
I can see his face go cold, and stomach bloating
My hands trembling, wondering why I left home-
Instead of freezing up, I check his Pulse
I can tell he's clearly gone
I couldn't look him in the face
I called my father on the phone
While the police take my place They thank me for my help
But I'm so throwed That I couldn't accept how things turned left
Now we back on the road
I'm crying
As life goes on, I keep the story told but violence is back where I land
The only way that I'd get killed is if my gun had jammed
I'd kill myself before I let anyone else get the chance
I can't do what my father did because that's not who I am
But as I get older, I think I'm starting to understand him
Is it wrong to feel this way or is it duality of man?
I can't be damned
Hope I ain't damned
Life turned me cold to stray from virtue is to fear
I don't see myself in the mirror, but I still keep up my appearance
Oh the way the demons echo I can hear 'em
But my pride won't let me near 'em
Look at my eyes, a silent war
Desires of rage keep calling so I just put them all in these lyrics
Hoping that when somebody listens, they can help me try to steer it
Not Embrace it
I'd turn to the people I wouldn't hang with
Fast-forward I'm 30 years old in my mama's basement
I'm too talented for that to happen
My mind never moves backwards
Watching my mom cry about the bills she couldn't pay me snap
So I went out and made it happen
I don't care if it's selling drugs I would be The best at it
My Homie told me that But I would just turn to an addict
I'm never satisfied where's my happily ever after?
The good will always win, but half of my actions don't matter
If it's not from the heart when All I can see is disaster
But light shines in the dark, so watch out for my angels
My guardian angels
Watch out for my angels