I'm not fit to be a man
Is it my hands
Is it my plans
I'm out of ram
You're not fit for me but damn
Let's make amends
Just be my friend
Please be my friend
Cuz last you heard from me
I'm blackout drunk inside a hospital
Last you talked to me
You're telling me that I'm not shit at all
No more verses
No more songs
And no more f*cking alcohol
Lost myself
I lost a friend
I somehow keep digging a hole
When I wake up with a slash on my back
And some texts on my phone
As a matter of fact
I got cuts on my chest
Prolly bruised in the head
Nicotine have me dead
Any second now
Please tell me why I don't
Get your blessing now?
I still have all our songs
All our records now
When you're all in your head
In the pit of your bed
You're all alone
I'm all alone
When you pretend to be asleep
It's the only thing that keeps
The pain away
Please stay away
It's getting way too hard to sleep
I been up all night I'm on a bender but I'm weak
Tell me how I'm living but ain't got nothing to eat
Somehow my friends are the only people I know sadder than me
The cold is coming and it's coming hella fast
Smoke a cigarette but I can't take another drag
Another drag through life man why's it spite I need a f*cking sprite
A line of f*cking coke something to choke down all the pain
These cigarettes aren't helping nicotine flows through my veins
I think I heard another noise that's the 13th today
My luck is hella down I wanna see that bitch again
Someone tell me why it's been like two years since I've cried
I got too much shit on my mind
And I just toss it to the side
But now the side became the middle
And the middle is the front
And now there's too much shit to deal with
But it's all coming at once
When you're all in your head
In the pit of your bed
You're all alone
I'm all alone
When you pretend to be asleep
It's the only thing that keeps
The pain away
Please stay away
You ever stay up late at night because you can't go to sleep
Busy thinking bout the noise that you heard under your sink
Looking out the window knife and hand not ready to sink
Never ever gon be ready to sink
Well that's the life I'm living
Every single day of the week
When your body tenses up and you can not seem to speak
Tell a soul and all they say is some bullshit on repeat
Feels like everyone inside your life is super oblique
I have anxiety and
No I'm not afraid to say the way my brain sees pain
Like every single day is great
My plate is late
Won't stay
Won't stay the night
Won't catch the flight
I'll be alright
I'll be alright
I'm f*cking fine
I need my mind to power down
Sadly the smiles turned to frowns
Feels like I'll never learn the difference
Nicotine still got me tripping
Got this one girl on my mind but now my songs she doesn't listen
And that's okay
I can't expect to keep a friend after the shit I f*cking pulled
But shit the things i do
The way I move
The helpful mood
The attitude
They ask to rap
I cap
Just please just, let me say i'm sorry