Zay Jackson - Relapse Lyrics

I can't see straight
Kaleidoscope vision the way the scene's shaped
Working harder than most, making less than minimum wage
Still living with my family, no bills but my loans are plenty
Music is making money, but pockets stay empty
(I'm)
I'm tired of feeling like I'm overlooked
Same niggas talking shit turn around and ask me for a hook
Like I ain't worth all of the work that I put in
Like they don't see my natural talent when I post some new shit
They grouping
Tryna be some extras in the movie
But I pay attention to how they moving
Don't know why, but I used to look away
I won't lie, these days it gets hard to say
Anything to anyone about how I'm feeling
Used to be a shut-in, my best view was my ceiling
And I been trying not to be that

But y'all about to make me have a relapse
(Relapse)
Im about to relapse
(Relapse)
I'm finna have a relapse
(Relapse)
I think I'm gonna relapse
(Relapse)

All I ever wanted was to make this thing shake
Shaking in my boots thinking about tomorrow and the next
Know that dangling fruit that hangs too low will eventually decay
Attempts to climb the tree of life left me uprooted in
In other words I mean to say that my pursuit lead me astray
Not from lack of ambition
But from lacking in my faith
Lacking keeping my cool
And lacking moving with grace
Substituted unpacking problems for packing to run away
That shit ain't work for me I'd say
Was in urgent need of change
So I keep fighting for my life
Everyday is Kumate
Try my best to deal with all the stress that I accumulate
Sooner or later I gotta assume that I'll be doin great
Cause I done went through a lot
And I'm still goin through it
Growin older knowin I don't make enough from music
In my younger days I used to numb the pain with drug abusing
Older and more sober now the pain begins to move in
Moving in like tenets in free flats
And yes I see that
I can't work how I wanna work if I can't relax
No longer starve for validation you can keep the feedback
But thoughts that echo just like reverb make me wanna relapse

Relapse
Im about to relapse
(Relapse)
Finna have a relapse
I think I'm gonna relapse
(Relapse)"