[ Featuring Fyelow ]
Everything keep getting realer and realer
It's making it easy to see
Everything we couldn't be
I guess it was realer to me
We never made it to Christmas, but I had a gift for you under the tree
I used to pray for your ease, now I just pray I don't see you
Now I just pray it was growing pains
Hit the dope, treat it like my novacane
Whole lot of shit I never overcame
I don't wanna see you we don't go the same
I ran out of time for hope lil baby
Outta the lines, you drove me crazy
See every ring I'm like "Hell naw"
But you know Ima answer that shit and I hate it
And shorty it's crazy if you think I dont love you
It's only my lil brother that's above you
If you ain't gon' love me or leave me forever
Then leave me alone, I don't want nothing from you
I'm doing stupid shit, I'm going dumb
If I ain't workin just know that I'm numb
Tryna do better foreal
But I don't recognize exactly what I have become
Girl I done been through too much
I don't got time for rumors
Man, I still hate myself
But I never trade life for new one
I'm learning to keep my own company
The money get boring it's under me
It's better to feel all the pain
At least then I ain't worried about wondering
At least then I ain't worried about shit
Foreal
Mmm, I say
Outta the lines, you driving me crazy
I can't keep control of the wheel
I ain't peep the signs, shit ain't been the same in a while
I still got your gift in the closet
I wish that I didn't, cause there ain't no place for it now
I really ain't trying to go out, I might run into you
Think it's best I just stay in the house
She get to asking what happened
I get to acting the maddest
You really already be knowing the answer,
And I can just tell this shit by your reaction
I'm a fiend
You took it as that, but that ain't what it mean
I say I might give it a week, then I try spin the block
Cause I really don't want you to leave
We was like Kobe and Shaq
If it wasn't for beef then you prolly be wearing a ring
I see you still wear all the shit that I bought you
Remember them nights you wasn't wearing a thing
This story got no happy ending
Cause after that shit we had ran out of pages to read
Girl I done been through too much
I don't got time for rumors
Man, I still hate myself
But I never trade life for new one
I'm learning to keep my own company
The money get boring it's under me
It's better to feel all the pain
At least then I ain't worried about wondering
At least then I ain't worried about shit
Foreal
