Mac Miller Video (MV)

I know the sound of fear
When there's no hope around or near
I was broken down in tears
Felt like I'd hold it down for years
But it finally surfaced, and I'm slightly nervous
I know what it's like to spiral, searchin'
For hope in this life, and I'm kinda hurtin'
You don't wanna know what's inside or behind the curtain
These drugs get vilified yet they're still prescribed
Mac Miller died, and I ain't even know that man
But still I cried, head in my hopeless hands
And it didn't have much to do with him
Or the drug usage in the music biz
The truth is it felt like the last straw
I yelled "life's too damn hard!"
I just can't... God! Why do you torture me? All apologies
They ask what misfortunes seem to have befallen me
'Cause all they see is the happy posts
He laughs and jokes, even brags and boasts
But the richest man is not he who has the most
My job is screwin' me
And stickin' to my principles will probably ruin me
I got no one to listen to, talk, or humor me
We grew it seems
Congruently but then we drifted apart
This is the part that gives me the spark
I sit in the dark at 11 past 11
Trying to wish on a star, never had a chance at heaven
It was this from the start
I keep inflicting this harm in spite of myself
Been cryin' for help now for many years
But it seems my pleas fall on the deafest ears
I'm in freefall, no ascension here
My cash is tapped like a keg of beer
Trying to get back on track like an engineer
But they applaud the train wreck, let 'em cheer
Let 'em cheer
I just been livin' in hell
I don't know why we keep killin' ourselves
When you're alive, music sits on the shelf
But when you die, it contributes to sales
I just been livin' in hell
I don't know why we keep killin' ourselves
When you're alive, music sits on the shelf
But when you die, it contributes to sales
I just wanna inspire you
I don't wanna hide the truth
I don't wanna be sad no more, I don't want to be sad
I don't wanna be sad no more, I don't want to be sad
I just wanna inspire you
The way he did me
I don't wanna be sad no more, I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad no more, I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad no more, I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad no more
Ay, yo... cut the beat off