Aaron California - Help Lyrics

Can you tell me
Why no one can help me?
I feel lost and alone
Like I'm so far from home
By myself, please
Can you help me?

Right now I'm feeling like I'm dying inside
Consumed by all the feelings I've been trying to hide
I'm so angry I'm confused and now I'm crying inside
I need your help, right now I'm feeling like I'm tired of life
And that's true
Sometimes I don't know what to do
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone, like I don't even have you
Sometimes I'm paralyzed it's like I can't even move
One day I swear I'll make you proud if I could just see this through
But that's hopeless
I try to use my will but it's broken
I'm staring in the mirror but I cannot keep my focus
I'm sick of all my thoughts and I am tired of emotion
I wonder if I disappeared if anyone would notice
Do I even exist? Sometimes I can't tell
Then I'm reminded by the things that I've felt
Right now I need you or maybe I need help
That's when I realize I'm talking to myself

Can you tell me
Why no one can help me?
I feel lost and alone
Like I'm so far from home
By myself, please
Can you help me?

Today I'm feeling like I've misplaced my hope
Or maybe I am too ashamed to admit that it's broke
I'm sick of everyone, I just want to be alone
You've let me down again and now I'm trying to cope
And it's sad
It's like I'm losing all that I am
I've got a million miles to go I do not think that I'll last
It's like I'm watching myself slowly become a mask
I'd become someone else if I could take it all back
But that's pointless
I know that this all could have been avoided
If only I had learned to make the smarter f*cking choices
I never asked advice, I never listened to their voices
To be honest all the noise had always been such an annoyance
Am I losing my grip? Sometimes I can't tell
Then I'm reminded by the pain that I've felt
Right now I need you or maybe I need help
That's when I realize that I'm all by myself

Can you tell me
Why no one can help me?
I feel lost and alone
Like I'm so far from home
By myself, please
Can you help me?

I guess it's time that I admit that I'm lost
I sold all of my soul but can't remember the cost
I know who Aaron is but that is someone I'm not
I look into the mirror all I see are my flaws
And it's clear
Sometimes I want to disappear
Far away from everything that I've come to fear
Somewhere that I know I won't be judged for my tears
I know I can stay strong if I ignore what I hear
But it kills me
No one out there really knows the real me
They don't know what I am and they do not know what I will be
They want to see me pressured, they want to see me guilty
They're praying for the day that they can say my hands are filthy
Do I even make sense? Sometimes I can't tell
Then I get worried I may not be well
Right now I need you or maybe I need help
That's when I realized that I just lost myself

Can you tell me
Why no one can help me?
I feel lost and alone
Like I'm so far from home
By myself, please
Can you help me?