Fade Video (MV)

So defeated so depleted huh
Unbelief in my own reason, yea
Never thought that I would see this
Contemplating my own feelings
Am I really moving off of the floor?
Is this even what I want anymore?
Stuck in bags I never been in before
Maybe I should fade away be no more
Feeling like I haven't faced north for a long minute
Been in so many bags I ain't feelin like I'm winnin
Long time comin and it's still a long time, going
No where fast time gotta start slowin
Swimming in pain, struggles to maintain sanity
Fights in my brain, wondering why so much calamity
Tryna understand all the hatred I've been getting
Life on armageddon, got me like guitars Cus I'm frettin
Lot of people see me determined so they get nervous
Natural for people to shut down the ones that's workin
Earned the right for success they've worked their whole life
I'm out here grinding minding my business is that right?
This cave man also a caged man it's hopeless
Tryna break free from my surroundings
Lot of people walk by and see I'm tryna get out
But they don't care Cus they too focused on they own route
Love so conditional is that even love?
Never seem to fit in, can I be a plug?
Death is always watching, he ain't letting up
World is all around me, I ain't seeing much
I just see the same exact thing happening in a pattern
No real change expected, negativity's after
My whole life and soul through people, demons and more
I just need to fade away disappear for sure
Just make sure that fade is AR homie, AR homie
Just make sure that fade is AR homie, AR homie
Just make sure that fade is AR homie, AR homie
Just make sure that fade is AR homie, AR homie
Depressed man getting older in a cage that is getting tighter
Tired of being a fighter I don't want the gloves on
I'm just tryna make an impact same time live right
In return, hatred and jealousy is in sight
The son of man said the journey won't be easy I'm aware of that
But I didn't think it be this hard
21 young blessed to make it this far
Thank you to those who been with me so far
But honestly I need to get something off my chest
Lately I been feeling like I haven't been my best
I've been wanting to give up throw in the towel
Anxiety's rising as I'm writing down these vowels
I know success don't happen overnight but can it hurry up
Clocking all these hours in by myself
I don't get no help, no assist no lob
Musics really all I got Cus I can't seem to get a job
I'm just rotting away in my cave a single quadruple threat
Looking at my phone and it's success that i see with my friends
The little that I even have lord knows that I been lonely
Always feeling everything I do is wrong, that ain't holy
Nice guys really always finish last, life's too
Complicated for my mindset to get a grasp
I just want it all to be done cus I can't take no more
I'm about to fade away and disappear for sure
Just make sure that fade is AR homie, AR homie
Just make sure that fade is AR homie, AR homie
Just make sure that fade is AR homie, AR homie
Just make sure that fade is AR homie, AR homie