Ab Normal - Derealization Lyrics

Brought up in tension, conflicting my mind
Look how it's affecting me now
Indulge in harmful shit as if it's gonna help me some how
I just die more slowly everyday
Feeling like there is no purpose in life so why live through it and eat the pain
Everybody's so cold
This place don't feel like home
I'm so uncomfortable in my own skin
Whenever I try to go outside my head just starts to spin
Might as well need an exorcist
Leave me for my death just like the water slide
Cause I'm levitating in a water cave
My cranium is brave
But I just feel insane
Derealization hit me like a virus flowing through my veins
Walking down a road thinking about it causing my legs to shake
Might as well just wet my pants
Feel my face buried in tortilla wrap
My twisted imagination of what is not even real
Raped through sleep paralysis transitioning from the worst of dreams
And it seems
That I have become another me

Reality slipping out from my hands
Feeling like I don't even know who I am
Under some attack why I do I panic
Voices I hear get me feeling real manic
Prolonged anxiety stored in me since the beginning of my life
The way I'm living shows a lot
The way I walk it shows a lot
Why am I living in the past mentally
Don't wanna remember most of my memories
You really were never, ever there for me
We should not even communicate so don't message me
I am the creature that lives with no face
I am just posted inside of a cave
I cut my wrist and then blame it you
My life's a egg in a cold swimming pool
I eat your liver then spit in your face
Made of the shit that you put on my brain
I pray that you get shot, or burn to ashes
'Cause I embody the worst of your actions