Ab Normal - Kaput Realm (feat. D2A) Lyrics

I live in filtered whereabouts
Feeding off contraband material
I've been pushed to my limit
More than I could ever remember
Not a day goes by without
Having vile intentions
Twisted mental
Turning more depraved every single day
At a point I'm just gonna start to break
The sound of my head spinning
Let it ring, reality sink in
Already done had enough
I wanna end myself
Take me away from here
I will not survive the next wave
This is not a phase
Nihilistic thoughts in my subconscious
But I pray for my wellness

And it never stops
Suffering till end of plot
Feel like I'm inside a program
I'm not in my reality
I don't have control over myself
I can't deal with emotions anymore
I'm exhausted from it
Preference of hibernation
Till I heal inside
And comes the day that I await
Where I find myself in a tranquil state
Never have I thought
I would feel this depression
In my head thought I'd be saved
By a miraculous wind
So I light my torch
And inhale the smoke
Ease my nerves and go to sleep
Live life in a dream

Time flies but I stay still
I have nothing left to live for
My desires eventually
Throw me into my own realm
From a death hole, I resurrect my sense
For I lost myself and gotten depraved
This time I'm taking it all out of me
I wish for better days
Been trying to lead my own
Self to a better way
For inner peace, and better days