Abigail - The Preface Lyrics

Tryna hide all the bullshit that I done been thru
So I only take shots and throw em back when I'm with you
Not a fan of speakin on the past, sendin me back
Seein things I shouldn't but nobody to save me I'm feelin trapped
Lookin for God like where are you at?
How you gon send me here and leave me like that?
He don't pay no mind I watch him beat on her like that
And one day she gon leave and start whole new path, just like that
Askin myself is this what I deserve
This is daily, I can see dem spirits broken and hurt
Cant help but feel like I had somethin to do with it
Was it this way before I came along and I ruined it?
I need to know
Should I be taking the blame?
If I wasn't here would things still be the same?
These questions I use to ask myself
Done with these pages I put em back on the shelf

Feelin the same but this shit movin a different way
He ain't been by to see me and so I'm out the way
She so in and out I barely get the time of day
I look down at my youngin like we gon be okay
God if you hear me talkin to you can you talk back?
Needa see things clear cause I'm stuck in the past
Tired of carrying all of this hate on my back
I open my eyes and I barely see her after that
He tried to love me but we ran outta borrowed time
I fight these demons like I'm Ali in his f*cking prime
Take 4 in my chest for the ones who know me best
And lemme carry their weight I know I'm built for this
I'll never leave
I'll never change
Should I be taking the blame?
If I wasn't here would things still be the same?
These questions I used to ask myself
Done with these pages I put em back on shelf