The frailty of all my beliefs
At challenge i could crumble so quickly
The wretched ways i weigh my words
Clumsy in spite of hours rehearsed
How memories assault and dwell
While pacing through this mental cell
My back and forth through pride and shame
As grand convictions are betrayed
My carnal lust and poison vice
No dream nor drug will quite suffice
The ruminations i have built
To labyrinths of fear and guilt
These lacerations i've designed
Composed of dissonance and rhyme
And are repulsed by what they see
With tactful hate's passivity
I lurk in my own hell
Their sullen absentee
Basking in such dull remote
Self-indulgent frivolities
Working ever so hard
To suspend their disbelief
A character writing his own script
And scanning it obsessively
A masquerade forced and depraved
It'll honestly be a relief
To take my last bow and leave this stage
But what if they know?
It shows you know
In every word you say
Fooling no one but yourself
When you try to hide away