absent - Suicide (feat. Nate Susi) Lyrics

Don't worry bout me imma be just fine
Imma heal by my self but it just takes time
Want you to listen to me every word every line
There's better ways to deal with my life than suicide

See I'm scared of my mind
Scared of myself blind to the signs
Concern for my health call of distress call it a mess
Imma be fine growing with time
Movin along righting my wrongs
Pick myself up know im enough
My life is rough god made me tough
Pride aside smile inside tears in my eyes
Along for the ride refuse to die cuz demons lie
Look at my mind theres ghosts and a couple bad folks
You would be baffled
Come to my room theres a view suicide on the blinds
And blood on the side lines but i swear imma be fine

Don't worry bout me imma be just fine
Imma heal by my self but it just takes time
Want you to listen to me every word every line
There's better ways to deal with my life than suicide

See i think imma be alright up all night
A little up tight in my life
I see a lot of mess feel a lot of stress
Got a lot of weight in my chest that i gotta let go
Maybe i confess nah you wouldnt wanna know
Died many times cried even more
Maybe i wont win this war
Maybe theres nothin in store in this world anymore
I might be alone might be maybe on my own
Cant find a home for myself concered for my health
Im scared of my mind for real this time
Call of distress asap
Demons comin back i gotta a minute if that
Barely breathin barely feelin if you come in time i think I'll be fine

Don't worry bout me I think ill be just fine
I think ill heal by my self but it just takes time
Want you to listen to me every word every line
There's better ways to deal with my life than suicide

I believe I tried everything every pill every drink
Momma im sorry but im lost and it came with a cost
And thats my life and i lost that fight
And for you i tired survive
Said i was fine but that was a lie
Happiness comes in phases
Sorry i wasted all of yo time
Sorry im a disappointment every moment
That i spent breathin i should get goin now
Wish i couldve made you proud
Wish i couldve seen you smile
And i be the reason but ive been fieenin to leave this earth
Ever since birth but what i say now wont be a lie
Not this time the truth is ive never been fine

Please worry bout me no I won't be fine
I can't heal by my self in this amount of time
Want you to listen to me every word every line
I guess the only way to end it all now is suicide