Ac1d-Wolf - SevereAmi Lyrics

I'm exhausted from trying to be stronger than I feel
No clue who said it first but that shit hits home base still
Been four days since I've truly ate a meal
But Im alive so someone tell me what's the big f*ckin deal?
I don't wanna be here anymore, I don't wanna be so weak
Wearing trashy clothes because that's just the way I be, I don't wanna be sleek
To my emotions I'm a leech
Emotion vampire am I, they were all correct I'm just a f*ckin freak
But unlike you I sit and bleed
But I'm just like you I'm mean
Die laughing in a roller rink
Sorry gotta go for now The blood is clotting up the sink
And I see the aftermath of suicides Everytime I f*ckin blink....but that's me
Shrink the think
Baby push me to the brink
To the brink
Sinkin deep i need my shrink
Because i change the way i be
Be this thing glowing green
Because you know what they say about envy
It only gets worse when it is paired with greed
Impaired i decree
That my ways are justified like i said its just me
And i be the way i be
But i shouldn't that'll lead
To loss of trust, and love, and end in misery
Thats just the way it be
Its all it ever seems and its all ive ever seen
Welcome to my show and tell cant you tell im comiserating

Back to myself and these haters be mad
No time for that shit cause angers a fad
Fabulous I float to the island where all of my memories at
Off the coast of misery
man that shit will make me feel so bad
Just wanna good loving bond with my dad
But it's hard to do that
When all the flashbacks relapse
Like me with my habits ha
Skipity bedums
I just wanna get high
Think about my future and if it will be right
Think about the things to come that seem to scare most in the middle of the night

Do I say what I think or say what I mean and,
Can someone try help me find a life with a meanin?
Mean as it comes, I guess I come with the season
Wanna die but I can't die without a reason
If you're a snake you're found guilty of treason
Treasonous ways floating by like the sea and
Hard to be blind to it when it's all that I see in
Your eyes, full of despise, energy is not so different when they put aside their differences because they're only stronger when combined
Figure it out figure it out, don't think I'll do that when I'm encumbered by doubt
Demons always strongest when they're pulling me down
So I guess I'll try and make something out of the drought
Only able to do that whenever you're not around
But it only gets better when I don't open my mouth
How bout you shut your mouth and open your eyes
Troubled mind is all I can depend on in the troublesome times
Trials and tribulations is the only thing that I can call my life
Wanna be with you but tonight I must

Sever the tie
Severe am I
Indigo mind
Heart made of spite
Guess that's who I am, and I wanna di- wait
Who am I?
When will I die?
Is it your time? No, well f*ck it then I guess that it's mine