Ace Gahd - I'm Tryin' Lyrics

I remember when I told you stay patient
I'm tryin
While you were waiting, I ain't keep you updated
I'm tryin
I always say consistency is all I need
I'm tryin
But where is mine
I ain't spoke to you in weeks
I'm tryin
All my friends say I'm leaving them behind
I'm tryin
And my fam stressing, checking if I'm fine
I'm tryin
I was hoping you'd be open and you'd get me
I'm tryin
Antisocial
No, you know I'm busy
I tried

I'm talking real forget the punchlines
I'm tryin
I brought a punch
I don't spend time
With my fam
Y'all my Dad loves me
It's hard to love myself
He says the only time I call, when I need his help
I leave him shelved to seek out wealth
Yup, It sucks
Ain't no hugs
No kisses
I don't miss him 'less I'm stuck
Dad trust me I'm ambitious
I'm only handling business
Preacher's kid with 'stigmatism blindsided by a vision
They supposed to be the worst ones
My mom birthed three sons
The last one out the nest and he forgets to even speak to 'em
I lack communication
Sorry that y'all gotta hurt
If dirt is fertile and I sow just know, y'all ain't gotta work
Remember
I broke down and told y'all you're not listening
And so now, it seems that I can't stop distancing
But this is for my dreams
Consistency is all I need
I just hope I keep in touch as I travel overseas

I remember when I told you stay patient
I'm tryin
While you were waiting, I ain't keep you updated
I'm tryin
I always say consistency is all I need
I'm tryin
But where is mine
I ain't spoke to you in weeks
I'm tryin
All my friends say I'm leaving them behind
I'm tryin
And my fam stressing, checking if I'm fine
I'm tryin
I was hoping you'd be open and you'd get me
I'm tryin
Antisocial
No, you know I'm busy
I tried

I reminisce on little kids I begged my mom to kick it with
And wont forget the laser discs and VHS we used to switch
The wrestling men we took to class and battle raps outside
The lunch table conversations before you lost your life
The friends I lost from lack of talking hurting on my heart
You picked me up and got in trouble 'cause you stole ya mama's car
And I know we faded
No, we ain't been the most close
Just gave you props on turning pops
Your baby's four years old

I remember when I told you stay patient
I'm tryin'
While you were waiting, I ain't keep you updated
I'm tryin'
I always say consistency is all I need
I'm tryin'
But where is mine
I ain't spoke to you in weeks
I'm tryin'
All my friends say I'm leaving them behind
I'm tryin'
And my fam stressing, checking if I'm fine
I'm tryin'
I was hoping you'd be open and you'd get me
I'm tryin'
Antisocial
No, you know I'm busy
I tried
I tried
I tried
I tried

I'm not done
I still got one more verse
But this one hit different
Listen to me

This one's for the exes I was probably too
Prideful to admit my time spending problems to
I know you gone hear this and think I'm talking to you
And if the shoe fits a bit then its probably true
They say patience has its place
I wait at efficient pace
Prom couldn't make you stay
I'd never took you on a date
Looked your father in his face
He told me it was meant to be
Eventually, we reconvened
I think I started to believe him
Woman, I needed you
I fell in love with you
Why you have to do me like that
Was I enough for you
Why'd we never work out
I only told you I was busy
Asked God for assistance before I kicked you out the image
She said Nah, don't you dare bring God into this
He ain't the one breaking up with me
God ain't do it
You got exactly what you wanted
Lead me on and mistreat
I said its not that narrative
God ain't tell you to cheat neither
So we talking 'bout decisions
Here goes your insight
About that ex who ghosted you and then you asked for my advice
That man abused you
Had you about to take your life
So I told you not to see him but you did and you went twice
I held my composure when you told me you needed closure
You weren't supposed to go when you did
I could've chose to
Forgive you
I trusted you
He wasn't justified
He was just another guy but you went back a second time
Man, it's sad
This ain't the end
She seeing a close friend to me
But maybe she won't cheat and that was only did to me
I say it doesn't hurt me 'cause he doesn't know she dragged me
And I hold it all in
I just wanna see him happy
I tried
I tried
Yea girl, I tried
I tried

I hope you get what you wanted
I wish y'all the best
But I had to speak up
And get this off of my chest
Baby, I deserve better
And maybe you did too
And as I heal, girl
I'll forget you too
I'm tryin
I hope you get what you wanted
I wish y'all the best
But I had to speak up
And get this off of my chest
Baby, I deserve better
Maybe you did too
And as I heal, girl
I'll forget you too
I'm tryin
I'm tryin
Yea girl, I'm tryin
Mama, I'm tryin
That goes for pops too, I'm tryin
All my friends, I'm tryin
I hope you know I'm tryin
I'm tryin
Listen, I'm tryin
I'm gone