Caught up in my chronic depression - can't pick shit
Trying to hone a profession - got ma wrist slit
My life and home are my confession - is this it?
Lost I roam, gone is my hope - I'm in my bricked crib
I lose everything I have all the f*cking time
My life can't be summed up in one god damn f*cking rhyme
Parts of my family are gone, I miss them
They meant much to me, it ain't fair, I'm pissed, man
Once again I'm all alone, no one fills my void
The darkness in my heart makes me feel paranoid
To others I'm just a f*cking toy, got no joy
Now I'm employed, yet I'm cornered by this cold void
No one got my back, they're against what I do
I hum the sweet lullaby of I am the fool
Those lies aren't true, I can see the beast I'll be
Friends and family, messing with an empty piece
I lost my family, I lost my friends
I lost my looks, I lost my cash
I lost everything I ever had
Now I'm alone, lost in despair
I lost my family, I lost my friends
I lost my looks, I lost my cash
I lost everything I ever had
Now I'm alone, can't get no help
Others had a worse life than me, that's a fact
It fueled my depression and it drove me mad
I had no reason to feel this way, but yet I did
Couldn't do shit about it, hit my head against a brick
I've been thrown into this life like in cold water
I'd bring back my grandpa and great grandmother
Everyday I sit in my room thinking why the f*ck I'm here
I can't get no answer, man, I just feel so god damn weird
I'm trapped inside my own body, my four walls
Strapped to fate I can only try, do I have those balls?
I want more of life, yet I'm limited to my torn thoughts
My lore started when I was born, horror brought forth
I can't make it, no meds help me, I'm never free
No doctors can change it, tape it my life is debris
I'm never serious, the base of my core isn't me
I ran and chased it, break on my own rotten needs
I lost my family, I lost my friends
I lost my looks, I lost my cash
I lost everything I ever had
Now I'm alone, lost in despair
I lost my family, I lost my friends
I lost my looks, I lost my cash
I lost everything I ever had
Now I'm alone, can't get no help
I lost my family, I lost my friends
I lost my looks, I lost my cash
I lost everything I ever had
Now I'm alone, lost in despair
I lost my family, I lost my friends
I lost my looks, I lost my cash
I lost everything I ever had
Now I'm alone, can't get no help