Lost Reloaded Video (MV)

I was lost, lost for so long
Never found love, never won
So much pain inside my heart
Never had so much fun
Now I'm here, now I'm free
Now I can be whatever I wanna be
I can shape my own future
I was never so sure
I feel so lonely, I'm trapped inside my mind
My mind keeps spinning again through all this time
Never a second where I felt alive, it's alright
Life's shite, I f*cking tried to fight it with my might
Rap's my outlet where I can be whatever I want
No one can censor me, though I get f*cking shunned
I say offensive shit and let out my damn anger
My frustration is kept in balance that way, ah
I feel like I keep running on and on
Got a goal I want to reach, yet I reached zero, none
For so long I've longed to find my call, never won
I'm so split inside and all good things are now gone
I'm finally somewhat happy, it's been so long
It was pain and despair, everything felt wrong
Now I got a dream and a goal I'm working for
Even if it never comes true, I'll still sing along
I was lost, lost for so long
Never found love, never won
So much pain inside my heart
Never had so much fun
Now I'm here, now I'm free
Now I can be whatever I wanna be
I can shape my own future
I was never so sure
Lads I swear I make crap, get trapped in my wack-ass rap
Where I beg to get back to being unknown and dead
And that's my existence, I can feel your persistence
Damn, I need an assistant to push tracks like a piston
I spend my time writing lines, try to find new rhymes
Then try to f*cking align, all this bullshit of mine
I am lost inside my own head, that's so bad
Help me go get some coke and a dope hat
I try to cope and roam far, let's make some dough, bra
Time to get sober, skin's like a cobra
I sell dope, yah, f*ck my cold heart
Put it in a coma, smoke some soma
It's a new beginning, bits are flying, the sun is lingering
Bringing myself to be willing to pull through, it's thrilling
Energy's refilling, yet life is dwindling
Walk in a park during dark, I'm a kindling
I was lost, lost for so long
Never found love, never won
So much pain inside my heart
Never had so much fun
Now I'm here, now I'm free
Now I can be whatever I wanna be
I can shape my own future
I was never so sure
I strongly believe, that I am f*cking through
Through all those tough times, man I got the proof
That I pulled through on my own, proud I yell
Even though it took forever to get there, out of hell
But now I'm here, and I won't f*cking go away
I'll live my life like a cockroach, won't f*cking sway
No one will be able to squash me anymore
Indestructible, I won't be bending no more
I will do my best to reach people's god damn hearts
May it be through my deep tracks or in parts
With my banger and f*cking offensive rap tracks
Or even with shit that is utter f*cking trash, yeah
Ima try my best to reach some of my fans
No matter the cost, will make it happen, ma man
Breaking through this barrier which keeps me away
Smash it with my strength and then make it my prey
I'll make those walls crumble so f*cking hard
Piece by piece I remove those shards with a mine cart
Move 'em out of my way so I can progress
Progress with my life, progress from being left for dead
Ima try to do exactly what I f*cking want to do
Even if I look not so f*cking cool, and god damn rude
Even if I look like a complete fool
It doesn't matter, I'm gonna pull f*cking through
I may be there now, but that won't stop me
I've got no time to relax or else it'll mock me
I won't let life ever again f*cking f*ck me
I will force despair to god damn f*cking drop me
I'll reach the light at the end of the tunnel
I will be what I want to be, walls will crumble
I'll look back at the tough times and think that's funny
With a smile on my face I escape and be running
I was lost, lost for so long
Never found love, never won
So much pain inside my heart
Never had so much fun
Now I'm here, now I'm free
Now I can be whatever I wanna be
I can shape my own future
I was never so sure
I was lost, lost for so long
Never found love, never won
So much pain inside my heart
Never had so much fun
Now I'm here, now I'm free
Now I can be whatever I wanna be
I can shape my own future
I was never so sure