Premonition Reloaded Video (MV)

I was never really skilled, never good at anything
I just did what I did, become the new god damn king
Teached myself new skills, made progress damn fast
Though it always ended with me getting bummed and mad
Always gave up, wasted time doing only shit
I panicked, time felt like it was running out
My friends backstabbed me, acting like a bitch
Life pushed me to the ground, got lost and never found
I changed through pain, my goals slipped away
I gave up hoping I'd find my purpose one day
Lucky me, not long after life beat me to a pulp
I finally had joined this awesome music cult
But whaddya know, life's a f*cking bitch
Shit haunted me, it acted like a snitch
Had to take a few steps back and work on it
But time won't stop, it kept running like shit
I had a time, where I lost my life
Started from the bottom, it wasn't nice
Had to suffer through immense pain
At the same time I felt ashamed
Not a single soul had my back
They were against everything I did
The pain I suffered was so bad
Had no future, a premonition of shit
I was treated like shit, looked down upon
I was so pissed wanted to burn down my crib
Anger took over, pulled me back on my feet
The fire burned for years as I walked down my street
I worked hard to surpass all those motherf*ckers
I really hate all those god damn f*cking cocksuckers
They Looked down on my dreams, looked down on my effort
The grind was on, all day dropping f-bombs
But life put a stop to it quickly
It was time for me to suffer, physically
Saw doctors way more than I saw my own reflection
Wasted years being treated was f*cked by my depression
I sat in my room, dreamed of not being trash
So I could pull through, and bring in some cash
Strength never came, isolated myself in my crib
Writing down my life story, yet no one gives a shit
I had a time, where I lost my life
Started from the bottom, it wasn't nice
Had to suffer through immense pain
At the same time I felt ashamed
Not a single soul had my back
They were against everything I did
The pain I suffered was so bad
Had no future, a premonition of shit
I keep asking myself why I'm still here
Pulled through so many times, then came the fear
So much freedom and free time, yet I felt trapped
Lost my sanity, begged to be ended just like that
Every night I ask, what's wrong with my life
All things of the past pass by my inner eyes
I don't care who's at fault for my situation
I just want to reach my next destination
I feel burnt out, yet I haven't reached anything
Life's so menacing, feeling anxious n shit
Even though I accepted my fate, I'm drowning
Everyone's looking at me, they be frowning
I lost trust in people, lost faith in my wear
Lost everything positive, what's left? despair
Yet I'm still here, even though I don't know why
And after all what happened, I'm not saying goodbye
No one was with me, they pushed my dreams back
Get a real job is what everyone said
Nearly broke down, gave in to those twats
But I said hell f*cking no, and pushed them back
No one's telling me how I have to live my life
No one's gonna silence me like a mime
No one's f*cking with me and my dreams
Banging beats and rappin' is where I wanna be
If no one lends me a hand, then that's fine
I'll use my own strength to find a rhyme
I won't do half things until it's f*cking mine
Even if I'm on the streets, running out of time
I won't stop 'til I reach my distant dreams
I won't stop, keep going and f*cking scream
I won't sell myself for my god damn dream
I won't do as they tell me, I'll be swimming upstream
I had a time, where I lost my life
Started from the bottom, it wasn't nice
Had to suffer through immense pain
At the same time I felt ashamed
Not a single soul had my back
They were against everything I did
The pain I suffered was so bad
Had no future, a premonition of shit
I had a time, where I lost my life
Started from the bottom, it wasn't nice
Had to suffer through immense pain
At the same time I felt ashamed
Not a single soul had my back
They were against everything I did
The pain I suffered was so bad
Had no future, a premonition of shit
A premonition of shit
A premonition of shit
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