This is not the way I thought it would be
I always thought that I'd be old
And tired
And white-haired
And ready
The pain I had means nothing to me
When I can no longer feel it
My body is fading in front of me
And it's time for me to go
I'm on my way
Please forgive the state I'm in
I didn't mean for you
To see me this way
This is not how I wanted you
To remember me
The silence hurts
The strength of my ears
I can't tell if I'm gone yet
It feels like I've been waiting for years
And this water that I'm in
Is starting to freeze
All the places that I've been
Are flashing in front of me
I didn't think that this was how
I would remember me
And it's not your fault
Please don't blame yourself
For what I've done
It was my choice
This is my fault
This is my fault
It's time for me to go
I'm on my way
Please forgive the state I'm in
I didn't mean for you
To see me this way
This is not how I wanted you
To remember me
This is not how I wanted you
To remember me
I didn't think that this was how
I would remember me