Adcs Ali - A Proper Beginning Lyrics

Im timid
Im livid
I dont even love it
The life that im in it
Im already livin
I dont even want it man
What do i do?
Going through life
F*ck
Will i pull through?
Will i do it right?
Would i even fight?
F*ck it
Never gotta think it
You just gotta do it
Stick by the ones you love
And when it comes to push and shove
You might have someone by your side
You just gotta play your cards right
You just gotta keep on pushing
Keep on the fight
And i might be right
On the fact that
You need to stay on the flight
You need to save your life
I know that you will be bright

Will you hear my call?
I dont know
My body has taken a toll
All this bullshit
Feels like im fighting a troll
And i cant even dodge it, i cant even roll
Can i finish this fight?
Feel like im falling a fall
And it dont even matter
I lost my homie man
She went and f*cked the troll

And im just sitting here spitting my pain
And im just sitting here yanking my chain
And im just sitting here waiting for fame
And im just sitting here bleeding from vein

Gotta give me credit
Gotta make it work
Man I gotta edit
Spending on the debit
Someone call a medic
I was bouta leave it
Dont know where to lead it
I just wanna see it
Maybe you will get it
Maybe you will yeet it
Maybe you will love it
Maybe you will hate it

I just want you back on my phone
Im feeling alone
Cant control what i dont know
Gotta give it time, gotta give it bone
Gotta give it structure, gotta give it tone
Come in my home and sit on my throne
Bitch i will overthrow

F*ck all this posting i just wanna talk now
F*ck all the talking i just wanna walk now
Walk away from heavens gates
F*ck all the walking i just wanna post now

Posting and posting and posting and posting
I just wanna see it where it goes
It might blow
All up in my face
Im a living disgrace
Pull up my music
You might just have taste
I dont want to live like this
Yes i want money
Yes i want fame
Not just the glory
I feel like im chained

I wont name any names
But, when i was a killer
Call me Michael Jackson
I was living in a thriller
Writing songs down and I wont use a filler
Im a lil harsh
I was yelling with no filter
Im a lil hard and im talking no dick pic
Running through the channels and im just going click click
No one to talk to, nothing to do
Man im depressed
Woo hoo hoo

And im just sitting here spitting my pain
And im just sitting here yanking my chain
And im just sitting here waiting for fame
And im just sitting here bleeding from vein