[Verse 1]
Counting seconds in my head
White knuckles, pristine dress
Grandma's hymns still echo here
Through these halls of crystal fear
Every note must be just right
In this spotlight, hold on tight
[Chorus]
Measured breath, don't you dare falter now
Years of practice taught me how
To keep these demons locked inside
While I'm singing, while I hide
One, two, three, four
Till I can't take it anymore
[Verse 2]
Teacher's metronome still ticks
In my nightmares, makes me sick
Perfect posture, perfect smile
Swallowing chaos all the while
They say "stand up straight, my dear"
While my soul screams no one hears
[Bridge]
Sometimes I wanna scream out loud
Break these chains and make them proud
But these walls they built so high
Keep me safe, keep me alive
In this prison made of grace
Where emotions have no place
[Chorus]
Measured breath, don't you dare falter now
Years of practice taught me how
To keep these demons locked inside
While I'm singing, while I hide
One, two, three, four
Till I can't take it anymore
[Outro]
In the silence between notes
Where my truth still gently floats
I remember who I am
Beyond this perfect little plan
Take a breath and count to ten
Start this dance all over again
But someday I'll break free
From this strict devotion
Let my voice run wild and free
Like an endless ocean