Admk - Feelophobia Lyrics

I want a lotta things
I wanna know what its like be down one knee after i cop a ring
I wanna know love I wanna feel sensation
I want a queen by my side when I take over a nation
I wanna know what its like to have a first date
I want someone thats there for me on my worst day
I jus want somebody that wont hurt me
Someone that helps me heal I'm talking a human first aid
I wanna forget about the past
About the women who's intentions were all masked
Someone who doesn't put all my moves on blast
Honestly I need a contrast
Love life pause that
At least thats what I think
Walking down the hall you hit me with that eye wink
Now I stare at you wondering could our eyes link
Its something but its nothing like I'm drawing on white paper with white ink
Got a vision in my head of everything I want I wish could see yours
I was hurting from the past but at last I think I found somebody that could be a cure
Wait up I'm tryna be straight up I'm getting tired of these detours
Call me Admk call me Raph it don't matter cause I jus wanna be yours
Rejection I might taste it
If I see a chance then I might take it
If I don't commit
I might jus have to sit
Defeat I will admit
Put a rolly on my hip now that's time wasted
I say scratch that
Thinking positive you're the kinda girl I would post on my snapchat
I would want everybody to see
That you're the girl that I got rocking with me
Connection so strong it would be mighty
She's a caring, intelligent PYT
Thinking bout what we might be
But I'm scared of the rejection so I jus grit my teeth
Hold back lump in my throat
True feelings stay covered up in a coat
Gotta get control snatch up the remote
Drowning in my thoughts I'm just tryna stay afloat
Got a vision in my head of everything I want I wish could see yours
I was hurting from the past but at last I think I found somebody that could be a cure
I can't believe it
I shoulda seen it
This feeling I feel it
I can't believe it
But now this feeling I fear it
I don't wanna feel this way
I just cannot take it don't wanna be afraid
Man I want these thoughts erased
Feeling empty feel like its an awful day
Feeling like OBJ
With the way I'm tryna evade
The whispers from the voices in my head
I don't wanna listen i know i wont go to bed
So I take I what I'm thinking and I'm twisting it into lyrics instead
Thoughts are tryna stop me I'm tryna get to the bread
You're my forbidden fruit
Wonder where he'd hidden you
I gotta decide best be wise can't just pick and choose
If I'm being honest kinda scared to keep it real with you
Cause telling you my feelings I fear it'll jus get rid you
Anxiety trying me
Cause my feelings are growing
I'm scared that they could be showing
I don't want you to be knowing
That you're the track star thats been running through my mind
You're the right girl I had never searched to find
Its an issue
I like you but if I tell you then I dismiss you
No chance of me being with you
I cant you lose cause I'll miss you
Look at what feelings did to me
Got me thinking there's no happy ending in this movie scene
You're my forbidden fruit
Cause even though I'm Feeling you
I gotta tread lightly want you stay in my life even if I don't call you wifey
High-key
I'm wishing that you like me
Feelings playing on brain make me insane man this really messing with my psyche
You're my forbidden fruit
Can't have you but you're right there
Funny the girl of my dreams is haunting me in my night mares
In a crowd looking at you hoping you look at me
Seems that it can't happen forbidden fruit hanging from the tree