After Smoke Clears - Deterioration Lyrics

Two thousand one hundred and ninety days since you left the body
Flown high through the sky, journeyed to an astral plane
Another dimension far away
Eleven years of suffering ended, it's hard to comprehend the weight
Lifted from these tired shoulders
I feel freedom and grief, you are gone
A prisoner in my own home
I'm locked up in this cage surrounded with people and all alone
Must hide the rage, there is nowhere to go
Perpetual supervision, a constant state of inhibition, family in derision
I'm alone, home turned into a domestic prison
Confusion and delusion now your default mode
Knocking on the door of your mind but there is nobody home
Every day I try to make a heaven right out of hell
But I'm suffocating and locked up in a cell
Misdiagnosis on two occasions, deteriorating body and mind
Personality slipped away, left to decay
All I can do is prey
Make this stop, it's a nightmare, it's a living hell
Will someone care? In the pit of despair light I can't see
From eternal struggle set me free
Confusion and delusion now your default mode
Knocking on the door of your mind but there is nobody home
Every day I try to make a heaven right out of hell
But I'm suffocating and locked up in a cell
Body decomposed, spirit still lives on
Figure of vigour, eternally strong
You took the lessons learned, returned into earth
Endless lifecycle of life death and rebirth
Grief has passed, now I see clearly
I can feel your legacy inside me