Agxny - Teen Suicide Pt. II Lyrics

Yeah, look me in my eyes, who am I?
Another Suicide, I'm sippin' cyanide
I'll try to take my life another time
You left behind, my daddy couldn't say goodbye
I'm buried in a suit and tie
'Cos I said I was fine
When I was barely scraping by

Who am I now? Just another statistic
Hiding in the dark while I keep my distance
I could end the pain, do it all it's instant
Been a long time since my head been missing
Don't mean to romanticise it
Not my fault I fantasise it
Truth is thoughts are agonising
Mind gone, I don't recognise it
No, like I'm a stranger, life in danger
I don't want no conversation
Please don't ask for my location
I don't ever wanna say shit
I'll just take my medication
I don't ever wanna face it
After everything I've taken
Know my head don't even make sense
Yeah, I've been on the f*cking fence
Dying occupy my head
Breathe a sigh and think of death
No less, take a breath
I might hide, there's nothing left
I might cry when I confess
Suicide will be my rest
No

Yeah, look me in my eyes, who am I?
Another Suicide, I'm sippin' cyanide
I'll try to take my life another time
You left behind, my daddy couldn't say goodbye
I'm buried in a suit and tie
'Cos I said I was fine
When I was barely scraping by

Yeah and I know that you'll forget me soon enough
The memory just drift like dust
And I've been coping long enough
I do not trust, I'm giving up
And yeah, just know you couldn't save me
Reaper take me, my world quaking
Dying slow, my body blazing

Look me in my eyes
Who am I?
A teenage suicide
Look me in my eyes
Who am I?
A teenage suicide
Look me in my eyes
Who am I?
A teenage suicide
Look me in my eyes
Who am I?
A teenage suicide

Why you try living with a soul so cracked?
When one bad decision put a knife in your back
And you're not forgiven and free to attack
So now you been slippin' and pay for a bag
Run a warm bath cos' the demons I attract too bad
Have a look at my past when my heart go flat
And I've been feeling f*cking sick
And I've been feeling f*cking trapped
I'ma steal a f*cking whip and I'ma run the f*cking gas
What you really know about me?
Dry blood stains on my ripped black jeans
That's me, I'm beat, no sleep all week
I need codeine that shit ain't cheap ain't free
I'm not a person that you should be trusting
And I'm not a person you wan' fall in love with
I feel undeserving and scared I'll feel nothing
I feel I have curses that burdened upon me
Yeah, when I'm this low I stay lonely
I don't wanna f*cking OD
Not again, I'm losing friends
And no one cares, they unaware
And when I need them no one there
But at my wrists they f*cking stare
I've had enough of this nightmare
I'll find a rope and find a chair

I've been swimming in the deep end
Get f*cked up, forget my weekend
Take my time to find a meaning
Suicide without a reason
I've been swimming in the deep end
Get f*cked up, forget my weekend
Take my time to find a meaning
Suicide without a reason

Ain't no reason, eyy
Feel the cold, so freezing, eyy
I'ma rest in peace and lay
Feeling free up in my grave
Death the destination
Get there fast, I'm so impatient
God is dead but you're still praying
When I crush it up and take it, that I'll make it
No, it's a waste of damn time
And I cannot face it so gaze to the light
And feel no remorse or regret in the slight
I feel like my mood will forever decline
Yeah and I'm stuck up in a spiral
Thoughts of anger and denial
Make me feel as if on trial
With the thoughts so goddamn vile

I've been swimming in the deep end
Get f*cked up, forget my weekend
Take my time to find a meaning
Suicide without a reason
I've been swimming in the deep end
Get f*cked up, forget my weekend
Take my time to find a meaning
Suicide without a reason