AJ - Everything Lyrics

I never wanted to be hated
Just wanna be loved
Is it impossible maybe so
Am i just waiting for the day i write a note?
Eventually hah i'm already barried 6 feet
Don't love because everyone will leave
Don't hate you'll regret and grieve
Don't know what to say
Don't know what to think
In this f*cking mind
I'm a prisoner trapped in
I guess i'm confused then
Everything must come to an end
When i was young i was told i can be anyone
But reality kicks in when your dumb
I wanna do what i'm doing right now
Tell story's that help others
Like it does for me
Then you lose that motivation
And it gets depleted
Writing these lyrics is harder than you think
Putting how i feel down just to lip sync
I just make music for my ears
That can help with these stupid little fears
I'm not sad
Cause of love or hate
More or less sick of myself day to day
And it gets worse ever year
Hide in my bedroom falling away
Pillow cases filled with tears
I look in a reflection and i know
I wanna change