AJ - Tikvah Lyrics

I just wanna feel equal for once
With all the things I do I still amount to never enough
No matter how tough I am inside I'm still the weakest in the room
Never feeling valued or loved

I've been struggling to find it
Baby girl you been indited family just think I'm lying
Pain is what I'm really hiding
Every single day I'm crying what if I never find it
What if I don't even like it devil about to get excited

Don't know why I get offended
Should've known think I fell in love with demons
Straight from home, I don't care about your opinion
Leave me lone man I hate the life I'm living life I'm living
Yea think I'm winning had to put up with a lot
I swear that's all fact world got break my heart

Everybody know that I still struggle to be honest
Kick out of the crib so dawg I had to make a profit
Reached out to my family they all thought it was nonsense
Tried to go to church but they treat me like the problem
Honest jump right in the mash pit
Dawg you ain't no prophet
Waiting for the alcohol to go and hit my conscience
Made this to a sonnet I feel like I'm falling
Different things are calling
Yea different things are calling I've been falling know the word Is rotten
Ain't forgotten feel like I've been falling
Can't get caught with a mask
I'm on top where you at
I swear everyday I'm still gonna lose 752
I've been laying in my bed just tryna get to you
I can't understand why I can't ever have it all
I'm still tired of love I'm still never enough
Ripped it out my chest
You know that you've gotta give it back
I know that you want the lost laugh
It's sad