AJ John - Requiem Lyrics

I don't wanna face the facts
Everything is hitting fast
And I will never understand
Reality has different plans

Just yesterday you stood before me
You stood with strength I was adoring
I'm watching as you fade away
Battling your inner plague

You helped face the toughest fights
When I was wrong you knew whats right
Now how to help you face your fight
Is there any way to help you find your life

Cause every time you come for me
My chaos fades away
Whenever I remember you
I wished that you would stay
You bringing out the best in me
Is all I need to know that I need you
Cause I need you

Wish that I could find escape
Wish there was an easy way
Grief surrounds me every night
This darkness drowns out every light

Quick you came, then quick you left
Quick you left me to myself
Could I have helped you face your fight
Is there any way that I can find your life

Cause every time you come for me
My chaos fades away
Whenever I remember you
I wished that you would stay
Even though I know you're in a better place
I know that I need you
I need you

Every time I run to you
My chaos fades away
Every time I think of you
I wished that you would stay
The memories of you and I
Are all I need to know that you are mine
No matter where you are I know
You are mine

How am I to face the facts?
Please God help me understand