Growing pains, all in vain, they say this is what i wanted
Loving phase, hurting streaks, give up and start it all over
I just want some self-control
(or maybe)
I don't need nothing at all
In that mental state
I'm much better with that running through my veins
Rewire my brain so it starts fading it away
I just need to take control, back again
I know it might hurt, but i'm just growing apart
Guess you could say it's over
Now that i see the truth
I had to let go, i'm worth the work i put on
Guess you could say i'm sober
Now that i'm here with you
Popping pills, dosing goodnights
Don't worry baby, i'm gon' be alright
It's harder now, i'm falling apart
But i'm underdosing just to live my life
And i'm like "what have i done?"
But not regretting at all
I pray these thoughts just fade away
But something tells them they should stay
I feel love and i feel hate
And i feel them lookin at me
I thought that would make me sane
But i started to feel a way
I got nothing else to say
But just "get away from me"
In that mental state
I'm much better with that running through my veins
Rewire my brain so it starts fading it away
I just need to take control, back again
I know it might hurt, but i'm just growing apart
Guess you could say it's over
Now that i see the truth
I had to let go, i'm worth the work i put on
Guess you could say i'm sober
Now that i'm here with you