Alecxander - One Last Time Lyrics

All I ever want is chase my dreams
And grow into the man that you knew I could be
When nightfall comes the thoughts sink in
I've moved on,
But I still think about what could've been
I've never understood why the good ones go away
But I've been taught to trust GOD and have faith
I know it's selfish but I still need you here
I remember when losing you was only a fear
And I know it's been awhile but it still hurts
And hearing it gets better only makes it worse
I wish that I could wipe away the memories
Take away the misery, it's draining all my energy
But in that same breath I hold on
To your voice in my head saying "you'll never be alone"
In my darkest hours you bring light into my world
When I feel weak you're the strength holding me up
I would give it all up for one last time
To hear your voice, to see you smile
Way before the pain, way before the end
Yeah I know that one day I'll see you again
So I won't cry; I ain't shed a tear since you left
I walk with my head high and I do my best
They say that time will heal these wounds
Until then, what am I supposed to do?
Huh?
What am I supposed to do?
Listen, look
I've got a lot of anger inside of me
So much pain and frustration that I need to release
But I guess I can talk about it in therapy
Make it make sense cause my mind is scaring me
So over-consumed in the "what ifs"
That question always makes me feel sick
Can this be real or am I in a dream?
More like a nightmare playing on repeat
So what do I do when my phone rings I can't help wishing it's you
I know everything ends and there's nothing we can do
But why'd it have to end so soon?
But I keep holding on
To your voice in my head saying "you'll never be alone"
On my darkest days you make the sun shine
I know you're watching over from the other side
But I would give it all up for one last time
To hear your voice, to see you smile
Way before the pain, way before the end
Yeah I know that one day I'll see you again
So I won't cry; I ain't shed a tear since you left
I walk with my head high and I do my best
They say that time will heal these wounds
Until then, what am I supposed to do?
Everyday is a mountain to climb
I keep my head up but it's hard sometimes
Yeah it's hard sometimes
Everyday is a mountain to climb
I keep my head up but it's hard sometimes
You know it's hard sometimes
I know I know that you had to go
Cause no one really knows
When God will call you home
I just wish I had a little more time
Put your favorite record on
And look to the sky
But I won't cry
No, no I won't cry
I know it all happened for a reason
So even when I'm falling apart
I know your spirit is there to help pick up the pieces
I would give it all up for one last time
To hear your voice, to see you smile
Although our chapter has come to an end
Yeah
I can't wait 'til I see you again
So I won't cry not a single tear
I hold you in my heart so I have no fear
They say that time will heal these wounds
So I keep holding on hoping that I'll make it through
Yeah
They say that time will heal these wounds
Yeah? Somebody show me the proof
They say that time will heal these wounds
Until then what am I supposed to do?