First Desk Video (MV)

[Intro]
Scratches on paper, memories fade
First grade feelings I can't escape
Soviet desks and colored dreams
Nothing's ever what it seems

[Verse 1]
Little Masha, sat next to me
Sharing crayons, thought we were meant to be
Drew our hearts out, page after page
Till she took my trust and threw it away
F*ck these memories that haunt my brain
Childhood trauma, permanent stain
Wooden chairs creek like broken trust
Everything pure turns to dust

[Chorus]
Can't let nobody close to my art no more
Since you showed them all what I stood for
Playground whispers cut like knives
Now I keep these walls up for life
Yeah, I keep these walls up for life

[Verse 2]
Used to pour my soul onto sheets
Now every word's a secret I keep
Your betrayal taught me young
How quick trust becomes undone
Cold classrooms, Soviet gray
Watching innocence slip away
Drawing pictures side by side
Not knowing you'd make me hide

[Bridge]
They all laughed when you showed them my poems
Now I write these verses alone
In my head, still hear those kids
Making fun of what I did
Making fun of what I did, yeah

[Chorus]
Can't let nobody close to my art no more
Since you showed them all what I stood for
Playground whispers cut like knives
Now I keep these walls up for life
Yeah, I keep these walls up for life

[Outro]
Pencil scratches fade away
Like the trust I lost that day
Masha, hope you're proud, look what you made
A broken artist from first grade