Alex Bourdais - 10am Lyrics

I'm seeing glimpses of what it could've been
But she can't take back what she did
Now I'm alone again and I care what people think
I'm insecure again and my friends say I'm a freak
It's getting late I should probably go to bed
But I can't sleep with these demons shouting in my head
They say that I am bad, and that nobody wants me
I think that I'm bad and that nobody wants me
They say "keep holding out"
(They say keep holding out)
But I can't wait for friends that don't arrive
The world spins but I don't move
I cry still there's no one reaching out
I'm sick and tired and scared
(I'm sick and tired and scared)
I'm in the center and somehow I'm still alone
I'm so tired and it's only ten am
Always say that I'm fine I'm not fine
My family thinks I'm insane
(My family thinks I'm insane)
Because I talk to myself way too damn much
But I got no one to talk to check my phone and there's no one who's texting me
Everyone that hates me goes to my school
They settled down on the insults, but they're still as cruel
I think about them at three am
Over dramatize all this shit
They say "keep holding out"
(they say keep holding out)
But I can't wait for friends that don't arrive
The world spins but I don't move
I cry still there's no one reaching out
I'm sick and tired and scared
(I'm sick and tired and scared)
I'm in the center and somehow I'm still alone
I'm so tired and it's only ten am
Always say that I'm fine I'm not fine
So don't ask me about my life
I'll just say that I am fine
Everything that's in my head just makes me want to cry in my bed
Everyone I thought was nice just ends up ruining my life
I can't do this anymore
Let me out and close the door