Alex Mascari - Why? Lyrics

Why is your voice silent
Was it the doctors medicine that caused it
And why are your hands so cold
When can I know
When can I know

Yeah, speak openly say what's on your mind
Don't know how many times lately I've heard these lines but
The therapy sits
The pointless shit
And talking about it
It's not gonna reach down help me out this hole
Didn't take me long to know
From the late nights spent
Sitting by that bed
From the hours spent running through my head
I had to be told but that's the thing bout getting old
You wish for the truth and it seems so bold (now)
Yeah it's funny ain't it You see some people and their life's fading
And these things you see but you just evade it
And it happens to someone close and your left shaking
And all those bitches that you call your mates
They'll run faster than when you caught their bait
Your fed f*cking lies through a f*cking glass cage
And now your left with nothing but a head ache and that's great.
Thinking never thought it was that deep
Until I got a phone call that left me crying
Sorta sick and settled on the sofa let my mind sink
Thinking of all the bad memories flashing
Hinges creak behind me
Door opens and my mum's weeping
I wanna say some words but I can't speak em
And all I heard was a scream from where I sat
All I wanna know now is why dad...

Why did you have to go?
I really sorta thought you were coming home
And why did you have to leave?
Where did you go?
Why did you go?
Why did you have to go?
I really sorta thought you were coming home
And why did you have to leave?
Where did you go?
Why did you go?

Night before mum told us to breath in said I'm sorry boys I don't know how long he's lasting
Whether it be months days years that we have him
Please cherish every single moment that we have Jim
And I sat up sitting staring in my bed that night thinking of a cure as I closed my eyes and wonder why
All my dreams turn so dark
And the sounds start to rise
Kinda like I'm haunted oh how God I was right
Few days later to the church where I was brought now
They say he would be fine and that's what they thought, how?
But look now he's laying on the ground for like what the f*ck we praying and thanking God for
Remember seeing so many faces that were new to me
Last time I checked this was a dark day not a social gathering
See they turn up respectfully as they should be
But when you grieve, they're not a face that you will see
I wonder how you feel about my music dad
I wonder if you lived the life you wanted man
Hope that some day I can come up and just shake your hand
But for now I'm left with a broken watch I don't understand
Is it right is it wrong to not understand
Is it right to write a song about the things that have been
Beeping and screaming all though the house
Did I mention the cries did I mention the shouts?
The voices their all crawling through my head
I hope when I wake up your not...

Why did you have to go?
I really sorta thought you were coming home
And why did you have to leave?
Where did you go?
Why did you go?
Why did you have to go?
I really sorta thought you were coming home
And why did you have to leave?
Where did you go?
Why did you go?

I really wanna make you proud
So I sing this after I wrote this down
And learning this lesson is what helped me create my sound
Cause if you were really here I wonder where I'd be now
And my music's like a phone line I speak to you
Because it's the only place I speak cause I never do
And ever since you left man I feel I'm in a different mood
My heads messed up and I feel I'm singing a different tune
Thinking about the future like when I have kids
And I'll have to explain this all over again and that'll be shit
But nobody will understand, nobody ever did
They'll only know how it feels when they loose a dad and go through it
Still pictures of you on my wall
And I look at them every single day that I fall
Thinking I'm crazy talking to myself in a song
Cause if you were really there then you'd be here not gone
I really miss you man not gonna lie
And people get mentally infused after people die
And yeah that's a phase thats crossed my mind about a thousand times
Sometimes wonder whats the point in life, so
Speak openly, say whats on your mind
Next time I bet you regret this line
And next time I'm in therapy I'll never cry
Just press play on this song and let you analyse

Why did you have to go?
I really sorta thought you were coming home
And why did you have to leave?
Where did you go?
Why did you go?
Why did you have to go?
I really sorta thought you were coming home
And why did you have to leave?
Where did you go?
Why did you go?