Lately I been so pessimistic
My glass is half empty you don't have to
Lately I been so pessimistic
My glass is half empty you don't have to guess it
I find myself staring at my own reflection
So when I say I hate you, just know I f*ckin meant it
And I been so depressed cuz everything is f*ckin stressful
And I got so much on my plate its on this instrumental
See I be losing sleep, my girl's the only one I vent to
But I know she always listens to my full potential
Sometimes I wish I never went the safer route
Money brings security, I'm tryna get a safe amount
But I'm on probation 5 years I'm on these papers now
How do I provide with only 50 in my bank account
I gotta rob somebody f*ck it it's a homicide
There ain't no tellin if my ass might go to jail tonight
And frankly I dont give a f*ck it's only part time
I know that we gon have to make it thru these
Hard times
Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Hard times
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lies
And I still don't how I even survive
Hard times, hard times
And I gotta get to rock bottom hmmm
I often think of Cooper and the shit he did
Like why he take his life jumpin off that bridge
I remember back when I was on the phone witchu
That shit was selfish dog now how the f*ck we supposed to live
I know it's been like 5 years since that episode
But I love you dog its hard for me to let this go
Ya mom is special, lil bruva he be special too
I love Keaun he reflects another younger you
RIP to Cole, RIP to Dre
Rest In Peace to Mikey, Rest In Peace to Wake
I lost a lot of brothers past couple months it's been troublesome
But it's okay because I'm f*ckin numb
It ain't hard to tell that I ain't got no friends
I'm tryna find a way that I could breathe again
And frankly I don't give a f*ck it's only part time
I know that we gon have to make it thru these
Hard times
Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Hard times
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lies
And I still don't how I even survive
Hard times, hard times
And I gotta get to rock bottom hmmm
I been so selfish I took you for granted
I take responsibility for all my actions
Sometimes you never actually realize
How much shit you did, hoping you reverse the damage
I know first hand that it hurts to panic
Not knowing if ya partner is worth the battle
And I don't ever wanna make you feel like that
I swear to god that sometimes I'm a worthless rapper
But listen baby that's my own shit
Cuz every time I have to leave the house I'm feelin' home sick
I just wanted you to know that you the best thing
That ever happened to me, please pick up the phone quick
I just need to tell you that I f*ckin love you
I would never place nobody else above you
You always taught me that this pain was only part time
I really think that we can make it thru these
Hard times
Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Hard times
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lies
And I still don't how I even survive
Hard times, hard times
And I gotta get to rock bottom hmmm