Alfonso Conspiracy - Phantom Song Lyrics

First off. I never wanted to be, an enemy
But no one goes to help a flooding house, til the water leaves
If I could just turn back time or rewind to when I had control I'd be fine
Or would I? I don't know anything anymore

Awh Hell. Here I am sitting on my own again
Accompanied by the ghosts surrounding me, that never leave
Oh god, why can't I have another night of peace
I feel my brain getting strangled by my rage
Here we go again

Every time I let my brain off it's leash, it tortures me
I tie it up with a lie I try to believe, will slowly change me
Every thought that comes in to see me, manages to beat the last
And I sit being beaten by my own fantasies

Ah well. Looks like I've been left to be alone again
How can I trust
Anyone if all that they do is leave? Oh god
Will I ever be the same again?
My mind is set to something killing me...

Like I'm asking for a Martyr to save me, I'm holding onto a phantom conspiracy

Awh Hell. Here I am sitting on my own again
Accompanied by the ghosts surrounding me, that never leave
Oh god, why can't I have another night of peace
I feel my brain getting strangled by my rage
Here we go again

I wish I stopped asking questions that I know I'll hate the answers to
I keep running into a mine field and begging for a funeral
Cause all I am is a ghost with a heartbeat, a walking memory of who I used to be
And all we are are images of those that we live our lives trying to be