Self-Talk Video (MV)

Man
Just been feelin' like
I'm not doing enough
I haven't done enough
Just feelin' like
I'm not enough
Yeah, frequently I'm fallin' apart
Know my words stay sharp like the jaws of a shark
So harsh with the self-talk
Doesn't help lots
It'd be hard for me to tell if I held off
Cause the shame been ingrained in the grooves of my brain
Hardly in a mood to explain, yeah
But I fall into the same damn traps
Tripping on the same damn tasks
Should be hopping out of bed
But I'm hopping on my phone
Confidence and drive know it's dropping like a stone
Scrolling through the feed know it's feeding my fears
Always feeling so behind when I look at my peers yeah
Need a routine, but I'm reckless
Feeling restless, over breakfast
Yeah the day just started but I'm done
Sulk until the setting of the sun

Yeah
I've come so far I see
Still no harmony
The bar so hard to reach
I'm still so hard on me

I want a catalogue worth a couple companies
Want my kids and my crew living comfortably
I want packed out shows
Plan on giving back tryna pass round dough
Put the present on pause while I plot
Yeah noting all the things that I'm not
It's no shock that my days feel shot from the start
Giving all I got still I'm off of the mark
I've come far making marginal gains
But when the going gets hard know it's hard to attain
Yeah, some perspective
Yeah, think I made a mess of the metrics
Cause I invested
Many minutes but they tend to be diminished
I won't take it as a win till my songs got spins
Wishing I was proud of the place that I'm at
And the hours that I gave to my craft

Yeah
I've come so far I see
Still no harmony
The bar so hard to reach
I'm still so hard on me

Yeah
There's something deeper to this drive
Something that's been eating me alive
I ain't living how I wanna
Hard to get a grip cause I'm tripping over trauma
And my worth been defined by my work
So I'm thinking that it's time I reverse
Making sense of the past looking backwards
Instead of tryna make it all come faster