The Alliance - A Lie I Must Comply Lyrics

No please don't leave, don't leave me today
I want you to come home and say you're okay
My partner in crime, my friend til the end
I'm shattered to pieces and cannot pretend
Lies
This isn't really happening
Lies
I'm rotting to the core
My mind is so jaded with ongoing pain
Memories keep playing each moment you fade
I'm sorry so sorry and I am ashamed
A lifetime to talk, yet a moment to say
Goodbye
No this can't be real
Goodbye
No This can't be real
Confused with my life
Is this really how it has to be
I will be fine
Such a lie I must comply
It's killing me
Where to go and what to do
When all I can do is just drink to you
I'll drown myself with this fifth
Can't end all this sadness and habit to binge
Why
Why can't I move on
Why
You left me in dark
I've lost all my faith, my strength, my will
I care not of this world nor heaven or hell
These tears keep flowing like rivers and streams
I cry to the sky why him and not me?
Despise
I despise my existence
Despise
These are the lies
Confused with my life
Is this really how it has to be
I will be fine
Such a lie I must comply
It's killing me
I've tried to live with these graves
Burying loved ones has made me so grey
The numbing of drinks does nothing to me
Your face is the only thing I see
The face of the grim reaper looks somewhat like mine
Is this what it's like to not move with time
I'm so sorry my brothers and friends
This song is for you til the very end
Confused with my life
Is this really how it has to be
I will be fine
Such a lie I must comply
Confused with my life
Is this really how it has to be
I will be fine
Such a lie I must comply
I can't seem to understand