ALS - Lose my mind Lyrics

I'm about to lose my mind, I can't stand to wait
I'm about to lose my mind
I'm about to lose control, I can't stand to wait
I'm about to lose my mind
Why do people think that my music is fake
When they don't know the problems that I had to face today
I'm dealing with the problems often put me on restraints
And say your life is hard but can't deal with all my chains
Push away the waves, wanting to feel safe
I'm waiting for the day that I feel a little brave
So I can talk about my day and show what gives me pain
My life is kinda bitter so don't ask how it tastes
If time is really money then I'm broker than a druggy
I've been feeling like a dummy and I laugh but it ain't funny
Wanna chill with all my buddies and go out while it's still sunny
But the only choice I give myself is stay home, rap and study
But then, yeah, they ask me how it's been
And I can tell a lie cause my dad said it's a sin
But they ask about my day and my head decides to spin
So I just block them out and I never let them in
I'm about to lose my mind, I can't stand to wait
I'm about to lose my mind
I'm about to lose control, I can't stand to wait
I'm about to lose my mind
I might lose my mind, maybe track a time
Yeah, I can't see where I'm going but I know I'll cross a line
If I tell you that I'm fine, we know that deep inside
That that's not how I'm feeling but that's how I reply
I'm sorry if I lie but I just don't feel safe
Yeah, here inside my mind with the problems that I face
My only choice is hide from the ones who cause me pain
But how I live my life will never be the same
I often break in tears so excuse me if I cry
I really do not mean it but it happens all the time
It's hard to trust the ones I love when all they do is lie
But sometimes I can't take the truth, I'd rather die inside
Go ahead, look inside and find a way to help
My anxiety is raging and I can't help myself
Yeah, music is my gateway but problems still surround
Life's a deck of cards and I hate the hand I'm dealt
I'm about to lose my mind
I can't stand to wait
I'm about to lose my mind
I'm about to lose control
I can't stand to wait
I'm about to lose my mind
I'm about to lose my mind