Alterak - Waiting Lyrics

I've been through the wringer, but I wish I never ink it to the paper
Think I'm changed, but I'm the same kid, who would've been different
If I hadn't packed my shit, go to a different place, work on a different pace
Work in a different way, opposite of f*cking trend. I'm a simple man
Wanna be free bird, but I think I'm caged. It's a weird world for me, it's a pain
But I guess, if I get loved I'd be so happy, even if its for a second
I just can't keep rapping and not have one who's looking at me and tell me
She loves me, no matter what shit's been thrown at me
Cuz I tried to be tough, suck it up, tell myself
Convince that relationship is something that ain't made for me
But, the fact is, after the show is over, who the f*ck's gon' hold you
And tell you that you have more than what you think?
I'd be lying if I say that this f*cking shit doesn't make me cringe
But sometimes this shit just makes me so envy that everyone that I know is either married
Or is either happy being couples
I'm angry, a little bit cranky, somebody has said me, I'm not even trying, it's a lie, I cry every night
I'm not a romantic type, but the fact is, that what's the use of the balls if you have none to defend?
It's like I'm standing up on the sand, cuz sometimes it feels alright to be alone
But sometimes the water just drowns me, man

There used to be a time, exuberant, without stress and worrying about the age
When we used to play when we wanna play. Now, I regret that I wished they'd just go away
So many memories that it tends to cease every sensory organs
January, February and each month would seem to be 90 days length, gone in 3
Now, I do hate one bitch who just shitted on me, but I can't even lie
That one is the only one I came too close to
And I stayed too focused on the fact that she likes music just like me
I'm hopeless, and I keep trying, but even the car battery f*cking dies
And you have no option than to replace it or charge it
Cuz how far you can go without a push in your life?
And I just, wanna have life, while doing the shit I like, with people I adore
But it seems like I'm hoping to find vampires in the daylight, but in the night I just snore
And the days goes by, as I get mad old, and the hair goes white
Regret that choice, when I said I'd have life with no goddamn whore
While my mind's like "yeah, right", and my heart says "no"
It's black and blue sometimes, it is white and gold other times
F*ck it, I can't decide
Till then I pantomime with this f*cking middle finger
It was a trap, now I'm getting to your favorite rapper's throat!