Alternative Depression Cult - Do You Miss Me / California Lyrics

When I am awake who is pulling the strings
And when I am asleep who's directing my dreams
And why are you cast as the lead
And why are you cast as the lead
I wish I was sober
I can't pick myself of the ground
Ground
Ground
When you're f*cking him
What are we
Just platonic soulmates in the dance of our generation
Casual sex and make-up vacations
If you're in love with him
Then who am I
Premarital sex and medication
I hope he is sober
I didn't sell him my my Oxycontin
I wish I was sober
I took all of my my my my Oxycontin
If I'm not living for myself
For nobody else
Why am I living
If I'm not striving for your touch
I didn't mean that much to me
I wish you were sober
You can love me but you cannot touch me
When I am awake who cut the strings
And left me standing here
And when I am asleep who's directing my dreams
And holding the noise machine
That makes it hard to sleep
And why are you cast as the lead
I wish I was sober
I can't pick you up off the ground
Ground
Ground
"Hey, I know that we're not on speaking terms or whatever
But I'd really like to be. I know I hurt you and I'm trying to give you time
But I still miss you and just because I don't like you in that way doesn't mean I don't miss you
If you need more time just let me know
I'm sorry if I lead you on or something I didn't mean to and I didn't realize I was
I'm sorry"
(It's getting late I should really go home
My car is stuck on a rolling stone
Somebody's stuck on the train tracks
Probably hopping they can go back)
In the face of defeat you look away
Cause there's no time for failure when you got
You got bills to pay
And your mamma would be so proud
If you moved out of this town
Back to the land you were born and the land
In this whole world of ours
We're like stars divided by nothing
And if God is real and you were right
Could you stay just one more night
In hotel room 223
But California doesn't wait
For your dreams to hesitate
So before you punch me in the face
Make sure your dreams don't go to waste
But I have driven three-hundred miles
To see your face in strangers smiles
But nothing hurts more than this
To say the things you know you should
But nothing hurts more than "could"
Nothing hurts more than this
And if I'm moving out
Another state, another sound
Could you call to say you're coming
If love is love then what are we
Just two lost lovers in disarray
Nothing hurts more than this
But I am love
I am love
I am love
I am love
I am love
Love isn't love enough
Love isn't love enough
Love isn't love enough
Left me standing here
Who is asleep while I am trying to scream
And I can't go to sleep
And I have driven three-hundred miles
To see your face in strangers smiles
But nothing hurts more than this