My Struggles Video (MV)

How come it feels like im always down
You can pick me up but ill fall down
She can't come back I won't allow it
Look in the mirror can't see myself
Contemplating should I call for help
I think I need to admit myself
All this time you ain't know what I felt
I got a lot on my mind
Sometimes it feel like im blind
Ohhhh
So I tell you that we gotta move slow
Everyday I wake up
I pray to god forgive all my sins
Pack up my shit then I go to the gym
Now this a start to my day I begin
I hope the hard times worth it all in the end
To my fam I stay happy man that's all pretend
Deep inside im really hurtin again
Stay modest I just do what I can
Tried to stay solid but im sorry I ran
Yea
Don't know what im doin
I just drift with the wind as it blows
Feel like my life ready over
I hate bein sober
I try to block out the noise
But it's to loud I can't focus
People be talkin to me
Contemplating what I said
Now im all in my head
Try to figure out if I should of said different
I been like this since a kid
Yea I got trauma from my past
Ma tellin me I wasn't good enough
I witnessed her try to kill herself
I tried to get passed it all
But demons they keep callin
All these tears they keep fallin
So I hoop just to cope wit the stress
The fam and the memories all I got left
Vent to the beats to get out of my head
Im just waiting to see what god got next for me
They been thinkin im good
Whole time I've been misunderstood
Look in the mirror can't see myself
Contemplating should I call for help
I think I need to admit myself
All this time you ain't know what I felt
I got a lot on my mind
Sometimes it feel like im blind
Ohhhh
So I tell you that we gotta move slow
Don't know what im doin
I just drift with the wind as it blows
Feel like my life ready over
I hate bein sober
I try to block out the noise
But it's to loud I can't focus