A Flower's Secret Video (MV)

Memories of Colgate smiles with my ex from text that I haven't deleted
It's so deceiving
Cause these smiles don't reflect the way she was treated
Our relation was an open wound and I put pressure on everything but the bleeding
Moments like this I reminisce and wonder how - been doing (Yea)
No longer direct so I'm speaking through the music (Music)
On? Nwhenever I go take the long way home
To re experience a feeling no one else would know
Botanic garden in winter time over Christmas lights (Yea)
But she was the brightest to ever shine that single night (Yea)
I used to think if the stars aligned they would stand beside
You
Cause everything seems dim if you're alive
Til death do me part please understand i'll always love you
Pistol with extended muzzle cupid shot me that's his hustle
Now I have incomplete goals since I let you go
It's like you fell for me with a bungie but I just cut the rope (Yea)
And now realized i'm never getting you back (Aye)
I'm still regretting why'd i have to put you through that
(Why'd I put you through that)
I'm harry potter these mental scars they'll make me a legend
But lately I've been more styles just moving 1 direction
Dinner dates with new women feel like interrogations (Yea)
My Colgate smile a façade and she sees through my faces (Aye)
I split the check so she understands our relationship
She thought I was an angel I said baby that what satan is
My past relations force barricades on new women lately
I blame myself and before she loves me she'll learn to hate me (Yea)
Cause my mind is focused on women who no longer date me
Invest my energy to hurt women who day to day me (Aye)
I copped a foreign revving on her street she can't ignore this
Tires scorching off the henny crashing rented Porsche's
Doctors know my minds distorted they say let's abort this
Ambulance when I awoke devotion broken they enforced it
Women concerned like airport security when I come through with all this baggage
And still say i'm not the whole package (Yea)
Minor conflicts that just need some confrontation
Let's face it and face to face it to overcome all of our phases
Wisdom over riches guarantee i'll make a living (You know I will yea)
With careful planning the choices I gain were the ones given (Aye)
Temporary situations with lasting effects
Because of decisions I made i've finished my list of regrets
So many things I haven't said ever since I left
I've searched around for a woman but you not like the rest (No you not)
I wanna settle with you and not settle with less
The face behind the mask i'll never show cause that niggas dead
I wear the mask as a symbol of the flowers I never gave (Yea)
I got tears that stained on my face (On my face)
No matter what I do no they wont go away (No they won't go away)
I know these apologies a lil too late
I wear the mask to symbolize my mistakes (All my mistakes)
Tell me that you love me and those feelings never changed (Yea)
The face behind the mask i'll never show cause you know i'm not the same (Aye)
So here I am with a wedding ring that was meant for you
You don't believe me Dom Perginon the truth serum you could use
What else could I lose (Aye)
I lost you, I lost me, I lost everything
So now I chasing my past cause thats where I keep all the better things
All my better dream
But since I'm losing sleep
I'm all alone
I guess thats how it goes
But lords knows i'm god willing to go satanic just to complete all of my goals
I wear the mask as a symbol of the flowers I never gave (Aye)
I got tears that stained on my face
No matter what I do no they wont go away (No they won't go away)
I know these apologies a lil too late (Too late)
I wear the mask to symbolize my mistakes (My mistakes)
Tell me that you love me and those feelings never changed
The face behind the mask i'll never show cause you know i'm not the same yea