Amni - Drowning Lyrics

Drowning in silence there's nothing left for you and me
You left me alone
I feel like I'm f*cking drowning
All my life I've lived in silence
Got my face pushed to them lockers
People trynna steal my wallet
Trynna keep my faith
Because I'm falling in a pit of violence
When I'm not that
I'm a good boy
But I'm also bad
Stressed while I think I'm blessed what's next cause my head pushed to my bed no rest and no breath
Got me feeling like I might drown myself to death
All my life I just been searching for respect
All my life I just been searching for some friends
But no
I was left all alone trynna deal with my demons
Cause they're creeping when I'm sleeping
Guess they peeping through the blinds
And I have no self-control shit I'm just falling in a hole
And all my dreams they turn to hopes
Because I feel I lose my soul
And every day is feeling cold
I lose my grip and then its lights out
Really try to keep my mind in peace before I wild out!
Cause I get crazy in a second
Everything I care about I'm gonna wreck it
Turning reckless with self-hatred till I'm laying f*cking breathless
All these demons standing round me
I can feel I'm almost drowning
I must swim I must stand taller
All these times they just get harder
All these demons standing round me
I can feel I'm almost drowning
I must swim I must stand taller
All these times they just get harder
Lose my mind ay
Losing lose my mind ay
I'mma get myself together
Till I live a normal life ay
These thoughts play
Games with my brain
Now I know ay
Give myself some hope ay
I can get my
Feet on it
Living life in the moment
Now I'm only zoning
Through all these emotions
I'm just really hoping
I can get out it
A lotta people doubt me
Bad vibes surround me
I can only feel when I'm hitting a blunt
But I'm getting anxious when I'm getting buzzed
And I'm getting anxious when I'm getting sober
So I don't really know how to get myself closer
To feeling good
To feeling perfect
I might just feel like I just do deserve this
Angels and demons they standing around me
Pulling me closer to the good and the bad
I just don't know why I'm losing myself
Shit I just don't know why I'm losing myself
So damn stressed bout my goddamn health
And I just don't feel my goddamn self
Shit I just don't feel my goddamn self
I'm drowning in sorrows and holding a bottle as I'm getting closer to losing my head
I feel like I'm sitting in darkness, drowning in hardships while I'm just laying in bed
All these demons standing round me
I can feel I'm almost drowning
I must swim I must stand taller
All these times they just get harder
All these demons standing round me
I can feel I'm almost drowning
I must swim I must stand taller
All these times they just get harder