Amy Azzara - Calm (Live) Lyrics

Today I arrived and I didn't get out of my car
I sat there staring at nothing and contemplating why
Nothing specific happened
I didn't feel the need to cry
But today I arrived and I didn't get out of my car

It's all the same but it's actually totally different
Because I feel surrounded by people I thought that I knew
The good times feel good, but I've built a wall to protect me from feeling it all
Over and over and over and over again
Over and over and over and over again

Why do I feel lonely? I am not alone
Why am I the only one who can't seem to let it go?
My thoughts circle 'round and 'round
They are spiraling me out of control
I don't know how to stay calm

My brain doesn't usually slow down or ever stay quiet
I'm either distracted or sleeping or focused on someone else
I am the last one I check on; I don't really know why
My brain doesn't usually slow down or ever stay quiet

Some days are easy and some days I feel like I'm trapped
There's nowhere to go and there's nowhere to hide
And home feels so desperately far away
I think on the outside I seem so intact but occasionally inside I only feel cracked
Some days are easy and some days I feel like I'm trapped

Why do I feel lonely? I am not alone
Why am I the only one who can't seem to let it go?
My thoughts circle 'round and 'round
They are spiraling me out of control
I don't know how to stay calm

Day by day I somehow stay
Breathing in, breathing out, finding calm

I am sometimes lonely; I am not alone
I am learning it's okay to move on by letting go
My thoughts circle 'round and 'round
They will slow down as I grow
I will try to stay calm