Anarki-Sins - x​-​rays gave me cancer so now I'm sad Lyrics

X-rays gave me cancer
So now I'm sad
Forever is the sweetest
Con to be had

Radiation poison
Seeping to my bones
Scared of ever knowing
And being alone

Knowing it won't happen
Hurts my heart
Pounding on my door
What even have I got?

For better or worse
I'll shut my mouth
I made a mistake
And now the secrets out

These scars I have on me
Are burning my heart
For someone like you
How do I restart?

Feelings are complicated
Of how I see you
On one hand you're my best friend
And the other wants you (FUCK!)

It all happened
So f*cking fast
We spent a week together
And now I'm unsurpassed

So, x-rays gave me cancer
And that made me sad
The worst part is the waiting
For patience I don't have

I'm going, through shit
Another, crisis
Who even, am I?
Another sexuality, to explore this time

"Tonight, after you were gone, I thought a lot about you and how you've been treating me. Why do I love you? And then, I felt everything in me just let go of everything I was holding onto so tightly and it hit me that I don't have an intellectual, I don't need one. I trust myself and I trust my feelings. I'm not gonna try to be anything other than who I am anymore."

First guy
In my life
Will I ever forget it?
Or will the cycle never end!?

X-rays gave me cancer
So now I'm sad
I gave it a chance
Now I feel f*cking bad
X-rays gave me cancer
So now I'm sad
By x-rays I mean your love
That I'll never have

X-rays gave me cancer
So now I'm sad
What is up with me?
Falling in love again
X-rays gave me cancer
So now I'm sad
I'm scared I will never again
Feel the same for, you