PIP Video (MV)

Can I stay quiet and still for the rest of our lives
Waking up in a sweat in the middle of every night
Anything for you to say I do, I do I swear I'll try
Day by day I watched my sparkle lose its light
Haven't had one panic attack since you left
Haven't loved my body this much in a minute
Thought I was anxious
Thought I was self conscious
Thought I was an emotional wreck
Took labels you made for me
Made up personality
Traits that didn't have to exist
Holding back the parts of me
That you didn't like to see
Performance improvement plan
Had to hit the metrics, make no missteps
So you would stay my man
I raised my voice for a second, now I'm clinging to the edge of my seat
Will that slip be the reason you decide to finally leave me?
One wrong move and you're pulling away for the next week
Can't sleep, can't eat, can't show any bit of my anxiety
Well I
Haven't had one panic attack since you left
Haven't loved my body this much in a minute
Thought I was anxious
Thought I was self conscious
Thought I was an emotional wreck
Took labels you made for me
Made up personality
Traits that didn't have to exist
Holding back the parts of me
That you didn't like to see
Performance improvement plan
Had to hit the metrics, make no missteps
So you would stay my man
Had to be so perfect, put the work in
Performance improvement plan