Dare me to try to write everything down on my mind
This life is harder than you think but I can't decide
If I'm depressed or if that is just normal inside
I cannot discuss everything not because it is hard to get it out
I cannot discuss everything because words cannot simply describe
How you go from an extrovert to everything going south
How am I supposed feel, when anxiety is gonna take the wheel?
I don't like being literal about mental health
But how am I gonna relate, if I cannot be real
To the one listening, don't fake it at all
Appreciate what you have and what you do not, or your gonna fall
Into a depression, I cannot express it
I wanna do my best, but I cannot collect it
The words and the thoughts, I don't know where to stop
If I auction my feelings out, It's not gonna solve anything
Why do I do it?
I post on my Instagram, snapchat and I get so depressed when no one responds
F*ck
I guess I have to be man
I gotta act like an adult I'm not allowed to be sick
But this is the shit that I deal with!
You know I just had a dream of those who remember me
They said if I keep on the path that I'm going
I'll never succeed, never achieve
But you cannot believe in me, how can I believe in myself
How could I even tell
If I'm being honest with me I just hope that I see
This is not just a dream
But I try to motivate myself it is hard
I beat myself up in the front of my yard
I lie to myself and say that I can
But I can't and I rant and fall into cars in the runway
I'll always be that way
I hate myself up until I cannot think straight
I love how that shit tastes
Revenge, that is the best place
My family doesn't even love me
I said I was rapping and then they shun me
F*ck it I can't even cope the colder demeanor I'm treated with, ugly
Is what I would use to describe myself
My mentality and then it's my health
My father was never there for me, but holy f*ck he treated me so much better than anyone else
But am I supposed to feel guilty for that?
Probably, honestly all of these things building up is a negative prophecy
F*ck
I guess I have to be man
I gotta act like an adult I'm not allowed to be sick
But this is the shit that I deal with!