Andiroo - Hold Me Closer Lyrics

Hold me closer (Hold me closer)
Hold me closer (Hold me closer)

I'm sittin at home and I'm trying to relax
But this feeling inside of me causing attacks
And it seems like the only thing keeping me sane
Is the shaking from the endless reserve of pain
And it seems like this shit just does not have an end
What do you do when you don't have a friend
I'm sittin in class trying to focus on math
But then I start panicking oh no not again
And I just can't get over it
And my body isn't letting me write a letter to end this shit
Push me off a bridge, I will say my last words
And then I will say "bye", and join the birds
And the angels, they'll say my name
Greeting me to hell, it'll be insane
But then I'll look back at my family and kin
And think why'd I do this to begin
Look at them Andrew! They're crying out
They really think it's their fault! Are you proud
Look at the pain you've caused their souls
They're more depressed than you
Have you made your goals
It wasn't worth it! You selfish cunt
Now you'll never be number 1
That's all you wanted, funny how that works
And the only thing you've done is made it worse

Hold me closer (Hold me closer)
Hold me closer (Hold me closer)

I got what I wanted but I am not glad
I'm reminiscing all the times that we had
From when I was a kid and making mistakes
From the time I was happy, and times I was sad
Picture this, when you die
You watch a tv screen of those who have cried
After they sat down and got the news
Was the temporary pain worth the noose
You left behind all of the people you knew
You didn't show signs they did not have a clue
But you take the remote and you turn on the screen
So you can see what your life really means
First person I see is the one that cut deep
My brother who's crying at night and can't sleep
Who no longer has a brother to look up to
And does not have someone inevitably
The next family member is my own mother
I thought she hated me but she was the lover
The caring mom who didn't see it coming
If only she knew she would have done something
To stop her son from taking his f*cking life
The one who was happy, a smile so bright
Through every argument and minuscule fight
She always loved me by the end of the night
I didn't realize who all I would've hurt
I'm ready to go back my lesson is learned
Who would've thought that you couldn't go back
After loading the gun and then hearing the crack
Look at yourself Andrew what have you done
I didn't know my life was owed to the gun
I take a crowbar and I shatter the screen
My life was so much better than it had seemed

Hold me closer (Hold me closer)
Hold me closer (Hold me closer)
Hold me closer (Hold me closer)
Hold me closer (Hold me closer)

Hold me closer (Hold me closer)
Hold me closer (Hold me closer)
Hold me closer (Hold me closer)
Hold me closer (Hold me closer)

Hold me closer (Hold me closer)
Hold me closer
Hold me closer