Angel Cuji - Cheat Code Lyrics

Stared in the glass for too long
I met the boy who's alone
He hides behind the covers
Of a man tryna recover
Oh all the places we've known
All of the lovers' headstones
Don't keep those tears from fallin'
It's just routine of mourning
And when the strangers sing
That song from that one fling
Touch echoes through my skin
Magnetic-pull me in
I sigh and let out a laugh
Place my old candles out back
Hope I'll see you 'gain someday
Here comes another birthday
So do I intend,
To keep playing pretend
I'm done
I don't wanna keep on getting old
One day I was 15
Next day could buy a drink
I'm holdin'
Onto everythin that I knew
My favorite records' grew mold
Our Memories decomposed but
Some they linger like the voicemails in my phone
I wish they could just reveal
That life's a game-nothings real
So I could use a f*cking cheat code
Another moment to grieve
My dreams at 17
I wonder what he'd say
If he came over my place
Would he be proud of me
Or would he get up and leave
Promise I'm trying my best
Please don't think of me less
I'm thankful for all my friends,
Even those who burned down the bridge
Cause I still hold the ashes
In the pockets of my jacket
And I keep the good times replaying
In my heart the fire's still ablaze
Pray at night they'll always be safe
See their face on parallel trains
So do I intend,
To keep playing pretend
I'm done
I don't wanna keep on getting old
One day I was 15
Next day could buy a drink
I'm holding
Onto everything that I knew
My favorite records grew mold
Our Memories decomposed but
Some they linger like the voicemails in my phone
I wish they could just reveal
That life's a game-nothings real
So I could use a f*cking cheat code
No matter what I'll do
There's nothing that could remove
Self depreciation galore
I wipe myself with the floor
Past places I once called home
They all remain war zones
I amputate the memories
Into a box and welded the key
To a necklace gilded so gold
Something I could pass down to my own
Like all the stories I'll tell, but
First I gotta help myself
'Cause one blink and that will be me
On the edge of 33
Til then I'll have to be here
Heal the wounds, embrace the fear
So do I intend,
To keep playing pretend
I'm done
I don't wanna keep on getting old
One day I was 15
Next day could buy a drink
I'm holding
Onto everything that I knew
My favorite records grew mold
Our Memories decomposed
But Some they linger like the voicemails in my phone
I wish they could just reveal
That life's a game-nothings real
So I could use a f*cking cheat code
Still playin those same old songs
When shit keeps going wrong
I could use a f*cking cheat code
Your hometown starts to look gray
Like the hair from your parent's face
I could use a f*cking cheat code
Chapters of friendship complete
Your loved ones start to retreat
I could use a f*cking cheat code