I remember when I was just a face in the crowd
Cn unnamed nobody with anger problems, getting loud
You hear that sound? It's the tale of my weakness for recognition and everybody bearing witness to my decision
To be a pillar for the struggle in life
I'm going for broke, the cost is high, I got to get it right
This time, cause I won't get a second to even get a chance to breathe, so come on up
When I beckon all of y'all to put your hands up if you're feeling me
I tell my story in a way that you all can see what I mean when I say I can't handle this
I should end it right now but I just can't quit
Because I've been on this road, it makes me feel so old
I'm growing numb and cold and it feels awful
Where am I in life? Where will I sleep tonight?
It's getting hard to fight, is it possible to drift away?
I'm falling fast and I'm falling hard
I wish the afterlife had a calling card
So when I leave you still wouldn't miss that much
If you want pick up your phone and you could give me a buzz
What would you say? Where would you even begin?
Would you tell me that I am missed? Wish you could see me again?
With my cheesy ass grin and that unbearable laugh,
I put a smile on your face but now it's all in the past
So now you're sitting there talking to my headstone
Spilling all your dirty secrets to a box of Bones
Feel at home when you are with me cause it's not going to last
My days are finite, counting numbers, another day in the past
Because I've been on this road, it makes me feel so old
I'm growing numb and cold and it feels awful
Where am I in life? Where will I sleep tonight?
It's getting hard to fight, is it possible to drift away?
Cnd it's hard cause I live there more than the present
Recounting everything I've been through trying to relive the lessons
That life seems to be teaching me, where to draw the line?
I'll keep lying to myself, everything's just fine
Cnd I'll continue my grind till I can give no more
See me crawling through the dirt trying to settle a score
In the core of my being I feel I was meant for more than this
I'm meant for more than paying bills, I was destined to do this
I didn't choose this, the life chose me
Our fates becoming intertwined to show a singular being
Our voices merged as one till you can no longer see
The difference between the music and me
Because I've been on this road, it makes me feel so old
I'm growing numb and cold and it feels awful
Where am I in life? Where will I sleep tonight?
It's getting hard to fight, is it possible to drift away?