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I hope
With every passing second, the closest to me will defend without a second thought
And now I hope
With every hanging necklace, you remember what I meant when I refused to take it off
And I hope
With every single breath, everything that I regret don't show up with a knock
Maybe, I hope
That I become a man, I see you with a new perspective cause I'm not enough
I spent my life, living in a coffin
Nails embedded in my hands, my prayers couldn't stop them
I justify the violence you gave by giving options
I say f*ck it all and lose sight of all emotion
You say with a heavy heart, this is where you
Lost it
The first one to dive in, and the last one to resurface
While the clock ticking, your rotary phone ringing
Every component will be working on its own
Each blade of grass, I knew this wouldn't last
With each blade of glass you cut right through my veins
Im looking at you too, its always been the same
God bless your iris until you find my lady crying in the winter storm of fire
Deep breaths to get you out of bed
Every morning l recall you say my name the last of my eternal flame
Always new elevations with you
New experience with you, paid dues
I hope
With every starry night, you look up at the sky and find me dancing in the light
Baby I hope
With every blow of smoke, you still want to hold me even with my dying lungs
I breathe, I hope
You find the satisfaction, of laying down your shield and sword and entering the castle
Know I hope
I finally find peace, where paranoia doesn't take the better parts of me
One of a kind for you
Die for you
Make you feel alive for you
Try for you
Cry for you
Lie for you
Putting everything that I can to the side for you
Down for you
Proud of you
Miss my pretty lady but I know I'm not the one for you
Live for you
Strive for you
Thrive for you
Turning back the time to try again and be with you
Once again
Hide with you
Kill for you
Use a 45 for you
I know you're not coming back but I'll always hold this love for you
Who am I to judge you?
Who am I to tell you what you can or can not do?
You were always meant for more
I got to watch you grow your wings
I must admit I felt resented
I knew you were bound to leave and leave me watching in a seat
I thought it was me
See at this time I still had an ego
Didn't let me see a future without you my full potential
Pretty lady you got me thinking I'm going die alone
Had a chance to get you back I had you on my phone
But I shouted
You flinched
I knew that it was over 'fore I got my point across
I tried to take it back but you said what I do now didn't matter
Tried to hold you there explain where I was coming from
Nearly four months later I don't think I got it
I was egotistical, self indulging, selfish
Thinking I deserved the world because I never needed something from it
Never going gonna meet another girl that loved me like you
Never gonna open my eyes
Rather be blind
I got some of these lives on me, on me
And they're never gonna leave
I miss my pretty lady
But I have to turn another leaf
Feel another heartbeat
Least I know I'm human living with my misery
Contemplating whether or not this life is really it for me
Good until November 2nd
That was really it for me
Never slept alone
For an era had a home
Now I sleep in front of stone
I hope
With every passing second, the closest to me will defend without a second thought
And now I hope
With every hanging necklace, you remember what I meant when I refused to take it off
And I hope
With every single breath, everything that I regret don't show up with a knock
Maybe, I hope
That I become a man, I see you with a new perspective cause I'm not enough