APATHIST - Anything At All Lyrics

I'm standing on the outside
Yearning to come in
Tears like rain, they fall
On the concrete road
It's cold here and I know
The wind won't leave me alone
I wish for the warmth of
A life not in vain

In the wake of a new dawn
I'd wish I wasn't alone
The day seems all too gray
I find no meaning
You listen to the birds sing
But I hear nothing at all
I see that you found joy
While all I feel is numb

I wonder why I never got a life
That wasn't in vain
I wonder why, was it you and not me

So carry me away
Over hills - far away from this place
There must be something more
Searching to - find anything at all
Carry me away
Over hills - far away from this place
There must be something more
Searching to - find anything at all

Anything at all

Please give me anything
Why must I take this fall
I tried so bloody hard
Yet I'll be the one to starve
I am going to break
Everything done was a mistake
Feels like I am breathing sulfur
Why must I suffer

Burning up, make it stop
Beating, bleeding, screaming, pleading
Frozen down, final sound

So carry me away
Over hills - far away from this place
There must be something more
Searching to - find anything at all
Wash it all away
Get it all - far away from this place
Deny what I've become
Looking to - find anything at all
Undo my soul
Cleanse my sin - I won't see me again
Regret every choice I've made
Longing to - find anything at all

All of my life
Why did it occur at all
Is it all just pointless
Is there even any meaning
Everything that I've lost
It still haunts me tonight
I wish for the dreams of
A better life